1 00:00:03,237 --> 00:00:06,105 Angela: IF I DON'T DO THIS RIGHT NOW, 2 00:00:06,107 --> 00:00:08,540 THEN JUST SIGN MY DEATH CERTIFICATE, 3 00:00:08,542 --> 00:00:10,809 BECAUSE I'M DONE. 4 00:00:10,811 --> 00:00:13,912 -- Captions by VITAC -- www.vitac.com 5 00:00:13,914 --> 00:00:17,049 CAPTIONS PAID FOR BY DISCOVERY COMMUNICATIONS 6 00:00:17,051 --> 00:00:19,485 Woman: HE CAN'T STOP. HE DOESN'T KNOW HOW. 7 00:00:19,487 --> 00:00:22,454 Woman TO THINK THAT AT ANY MOMENT, 8 00:00:22,456 --> 00:00:24,556 YOUR HEART COULD EXPLODE. 9 00:00:24,558 --> 00:00:29,628 ♪ 10 00:00:29,630 --> 00:00:35,100 ♪ 11 00:00:35,102 --> 00:00:37,302 Woman I DON'T WANT TO DIE. 12 00:00:37,304 --> 00:00:39,338 I HAVEN'T EVEN GOTTEN TO LIVE YET. 13 00:00:44,011 --> 00:00:45,744 WHY ARE YOU JUMPING ON MY CASE? 14 00:00:45,746 --> 00:00:49,348 YOU'RE OVEREATING, AND YOU ACT LIKE IT IS OUR FAULT. 15 00:00:49,350 --> 00:00:50,949 I KNOW THAT I'M DYING. 16 00:00:50,951 --> 00:00:53,152 I KNOW THAT I'M NOT GONNA MAKE IT. 17 00:00:58,292 --> 00:00:59,591 I'M GONNA BE DEAD NEXT YEAR. 18 00:00:59,593 --> 00:01:00,993 I KNOW I AM. 19 00:01:00,995 --> 00:01:02,494 AND NOTHING HAS WORKED, 20 00:01:02,496 --> 00:01:04,563 AND YOU HAVEN'T CHANGED YOUR EATING HABIT. 21 00:01:04,565 --> 00:01:14,506 ♪ 22 00:01:14,508 --> 00:01:22,648 ♪ 23 00:01:22,650 --> 00:01:31,790 ♪ 24 00:01:31,792 --> 00:01:33,959 Angela: WHEN I FIRST OPEN MY EYES, 25 00:01:33,961 --> 00:01:35,994 THE VERY FIRST THING I THINK OF, 26 00:01:35,996 --> 00:01:39,331 EVERY SINGLE MORNING, IS, "WHY, GOD?" 27 00:01:39,333 --> 00:01:42,234 THERE'S GOT TO BE A REASON FOR HIM DOING THIS, 28 00:01:42,236 --> 00:01:44,903 KEEPING ME GOING. 29 00:01:44,905 --> 00:01:46,672 BECAUSE EVERY SINGLE DAY OF MY LIFE, 30 00:01:46,674 --> 00:01:49,641 IS AN ABSOLUTE NIGHTMARE. 31 00:01:49,643 --> 00:01:54,913 I JUST FEEL LIKE I AM TRAPPED IN THIS BODY. 32 00:01:54,915 --> 00:02:00,018 AND MORNINGS IS WHEN I HURT THE MOST OUT OF THE ENTIRE DAY. 33 00:02:00,020 --> 00:02:04,156 THAT'S WHEN IT FEELS LIKE SOMEBODY'S HOLDING A TORCH. 34 00:02:04,158 --> 00:02:07,593 LIKE, DIFFERENT AREAS, MY SKIN WAS RIPPING OPEN. 35 00:02:07,595 --> 00:02:12,397 IT'S PAIN THAT I CAN'T EXPLAIN. 36 00:02:12,399 --> 00:02:16,168 AND EVERY WEEK IS WORSE. 37 00:02:16,170 --> 00:02:18,103 I LIVE WITH MY SON, CHRISTOPHER, 38 00:02:18,105 --> 00:02:21,340 AND MY COUSIN'S DAUGHTER, WHICH HER NAME IS LACY. 39 00:02:21,342 --> 00:02:23,876 SHE'S 11. SHE LIVES WITH US. 40 00:02:23,878 --> 00:02:26,278 I TOOK LACY BECAUSE HER MOM AND DAD 41 00:02:26,280 --> 00:02:29,581 ARE MAKING SOME BAD DECISIONS RIGHT NOW IN LIFE. 42 00:02:29,583 --> 00:02:34,119 SO IT'S BEST THAT SHE STAYS WITH ME. 43 00:02:34,121 --> 00:02:35,954 LACY, IT'S TIME TO GET UP. 44 00:02:35,956 --> 00:02:38,657 YOU GOT TO GET UP. [ CLEARS THROAT ] 45 00:02:38,659 --> 00:02:42,194 YOU GOT TO GET UP. GOOD MORNING, SUNSHINE. 46 00:02:42,196 --> 00:02:45,564 SO, I HAVE NO CHOICE BUT TO GET UP IN THE MORNINGS 47 00:02:45,566 --> 00:02:47,432 TO GET LACY UP FOR SCHOOL. 48 00:02:51,405 --> 00:02:53,505 I WAS SCARED WHEN LACY CAME, 49 00:02:53,507 --> 00:02:56,208 BECAUSE OF ME BEING AS SICK AS I AM. 50 00:02:56,210 --> 00:02:58,744 I REALLY DIDN'T THINK IT WAS A GOOD IDEA. 51 00:02:58,746 --> 00:03:01,880 BUT I DON'T THINK GOD WOULD WANT ME TO TURN HER AWAY. 52 00:03:01,882 --> 00:03:07,152 ♪ 53 00:03:07,154 --> 00:03:09,454 JUST TO GET OUT OF MY BED IN THE MORNING, 54 00:03:09,456 --> 00:03:12,658 I DON'T THINK PEOPLE UNDERSTAND THE PAIN YOU FEEL. 55 00:03:12,660 --> 00:03:15,961 BECAUSE OF THE WEIGHT BEING SO HEAVY, 56 00:03:15,963 --> 00:03:17,763 I'M HARDLY ABLE TO WALK. 57 00:03:17,765 --> 00:03:20,465 I HAVE TO HANG ON TO THE WALL. 58 00:03:20,467 --> 00:03:23,702 I MAKE IT INTO THE BATHROOM, I GOT TO SIT. 59 00:03:23,704 --> 00:03:27,339 I GET IN THE SHOWER, IT'S SO DANGEROUS. 60 00:03:29,410 --> 00:03:32,911 I'M SCARED TO DEATH BECAUSE I COULD FALL ON MY FACE, 61 00:03:32,913 --> 00:03:36,682 AND IF I'M DOWN, THERE'S NO GETTING UP. 62 00:03:41,155 --> 00:03:44,556 I CAN'T EVEN FIT MY WHOLE BODY IN THE SHOWER BECAUSE OF MY LEG. 63 00:03:44,558 --> 00:03:52,731 ♪ 64 00:03:52,733 --> 00:03:54,099 AND THEN, WHEN I HAVE TO GET MY LEG UP 65 00:03:54,101 --> 00:03:57,035 ON A BENCH, IT'S DANGEROUS. 66 00:03:57,037 --> 00:03:58,770 IT HURTS. 67 00:04:01,508 --> 00:04:03,208 MY HYGIENE IS AWFUL, 68 00:04:03,210 --> 00:04:06,411 AND I'M DAYS AWAY FROM NOT BEING ABLE TO BATHE MYSELF. 69 00:04:06,413 --> 00:04:09,548 I'M THERE. TO BE HONEST, I AM THERE, 70 00:04:09,550 --> 00:04:12,784 BECAUSE WHEN I BATHE MYSELF, I CAN'T EVEN DO IT GOOD. 71 00:04:16,023 --> 00:04:19,024 YOU KNOW, OF COURSE, I DON'T WANT LACY SEEING ME. 72 00:04:19,026 --> 00:04:21,760 I EXPLAIN TO HER, "WE SHARE A ROOM, 73 00:04:21,762 --> 00:04:23,962 BUT THERE HAS GOT TO BE PRIVACY." 74 00:04:26,700 --> 00:04:28,700 AND SHE KNOWS THAT I'M EMBARRASSED. 75 00:04:28,702 --> 00:04:31,637 SHE KNOWS I AM. 76 00:04:31,639 --> 00:04:34,439 [ Voice breaking ] I DON'T WANT HER TO THINK I'M A MONSTER. 77 00:04:38,145 --> 00:04:40,712 BUT ANYBODY WHO'S EVER KNOWN ME HAS KNOWN 78 00:04:40,714 --> 00:04:46,518 I WAS CLEAN, NICE CLOTHES, PRETTY HAIR, PRETTY NAILS. 79 00:04:46,520 --> 00:04:49,121 AND I DON'T BARELY DO MAKEUP NO MORE. 80 00:04:49,123 --> 00:04:51,823 I DON'T FIX MY HAIR NO MORE. 81 00:04:51,825 --> 00:04:55,994 I CAN'T WEAR PANTS. I CAN'T WEAR UNDERWEAR. 82 00:04:55,996 --> 00:04:59,531 I USED TO WEAR 1X. 83 00:04:59,533 --> 00:05:03,535 NOW I WEAR A 9X. 84 00:05:03,537 --> 00:05:09,975 AND I'VE NOT PUT A PAIR OF SHOES ON MY FEET IN 2 1/2 YEARS. 85 00:05:12,479 --> 00:05:16,715 AND THIS OXYGEN -- I HATE IT. 86 00:05:16,717 --> 00:05:19,484 BUT I HAVE TO HAVE IT 24/7. 87 00:05:19,486 --> 00:05:23,588 A FEW WEEKS AGO, I TRIED TO GO WITHOUT IT. 88 00:05:23,590 --> 00:05:25,157 IT WAS NOT GOOD. 89 00:05:25,159 --> 00:05:27,926 MY HEAD FELT LIKE IT WAS GONNA EXPLODE. 90 00:05:27,928 --> 00:05:31,229 SO NOW I DON'T CARE. THIS IS IT. 91 00:05:31,231 --> 00:05:35,567 AND AS HARD AS IT IS FOR ME TO SIT AT A KITCHEN TABLE, 92 00:05:35,569 --> 00:05:39,338 I DO IT BECAUSE I WANT LACY TO HAVE NORMALCY. 93 00:05:39,340 --> 00:05:42,607 SO WE'LL GO IN THERE, AND I COOK BREAKFAST. 94 00:05:42,609 --> 00:05:44,776 WOULD YOU HELP ME GET MY SKILLET OUT? 95 00:05:44,778 --> 00:05:46,645 YEAH. 96 00:05:46,647 --> 00:05:49,214 IF I CAN'T REACH SOMETHING, SHE REACHES IT. 97 00:05:52,386 --> 00:05:55,120 SHE LOVES COOKING. 98 00:05:55,122 --> 00:05:57,789 AND OF COURSE, WITH ME NEEDING HELP, 99 00:05:57,791 --> 00:06:00,992 IT WORKS OUT PERFECT. 100 00:06:00,994 --> 00:06:03,161 Lacy: MY AUNT ANGELA MEANS A LOT TO ME 101 00:06:03,163 --> 00:06:05,197 BECAUSE SHE TAKES CARE OF ME. 102 00:06:05,199 --> 00:06:10,135 I HELP MAKE DINNER SOMETIMES, BECAUSE I WANT TO SUPPORT HER. 103 00:06:12,272 --> 00:06:14,439 Angela: MY FAVORITE THING IN THE MORNING 104 00:06:14,441 --> 00:06:17,442 IS SAUSAGE AND CHEESY EGGS. 105 00:06:17,444 --> 00:06:19,311 Lacy: YOU'RE GONNA EAT ALL THAT? 106 00:06:19,313 --> 00:06:21,046 Angela: YEP. 107 00:06:25,853 --> 00:06:28,820 FOOD MEANS COMFORT. 108 00:06:28,822 --> 00:06:34,259 AND WHEN I PUT A PIECE OF FOOD IN MY MOUTH, I FEEL RELAXED. 109 00:06:34,261 --> 00:06:37,996 I LITERALLY EAT TO FEEL GOOD. 110 00:06:37,998 --> 00:06:41,433 I EAT ALL THE TIME. 111 00:06:41,435 --> 00:06:43,568 WHEN I EAT, I LITERALLY DO FEEL 112 00:06:43,570 --> 00:06:48,640 A WARM FEELING IN MY BODY THAT SAYS, "IT'S GONNA BE OKAY." 113 00:06:48,642 --> 00:06:54,312 AND WHEN I GET DONE EATING, THERE IS TIMES I GET UPSET. 114 00:06:54,314 --> 00:06:55,981 WAS THAT AUNT STACY? YEP. 115 00:06:55,983 --> 00:06:59,618 COME ON IN. WE'RE IN HERE, HON. 116 00:06:59,620 --> 00:07:04,956 BUT THEN LACY'S AUNT STACY TAKES HER TO SCHOOL. 117 00:07:04,958 --> 00:07:06,625 Stacy: ALL RIGHT. I'LL SEE YOU, ANGE. 118 00:07:06,627 --> 00:07:09,294 BYE, HON. 119 00:07:09,296 --> 00:07:10,629 BYE. 120 00:07:10,631 --> 00:07:14,766 AND WHILE SHE'S AT SCHOOL, I'LL EAT NONSTOP. 121 00:07:14,768 --> 00:07:22,174 ♪ 122 00:07:22,176 --> 00:07:24,342 I HAVE TWO KIDS. 123 00:07:24,344 --> 00:07:27,078 MY DAUGHTER'S NAME IS ANDREA. 124 00:07:27,080 --> 00:07:30,916 ANDREA AND HER DAUGHTER, MY GRANDDAUGHTER, 125 00:07:30,918 --> 00:07:32,651 WILL BRING ME WHAT I WANT. 126 00:07:32,653 --> 00:07:35,787 HI, NANA. [ GASPS ] HI! 127 00:07:35,789 --> 00:07:38,223 WHAT YOU GOT?! HI, GUYS! 128 00:07:38,225 --> 00:07:40,258 AND MINE ONCE. 129 00:07:40,260 --> 00:07:45,330 MY MOM WILL ASK ME TO PICK HER UP FAST FOOD. 130 00:07:45,332 --> 00:07:48,166 SHE'S BECOME COMPLETELY HOUSEBOUND. 131 00:07:48,168 --> 00:07:49,801 SHE CAN BARELY COOK. 132 00:07:49,803 --> 00:07:51,203 WITH HER LYMPHEDEMA, 133 00:07:51,205 --> 00:07:54,506 I UNDERSTAND THAT SHE CANNOT DO THAT NO MORE. 134 00:07:54,508 --> 00:07:58,443 SO I JUST WANT TO PICK UP THE SLACK. 135 00:07:58,445 --> 00:08:01,079 THAT'S KIND OF OUR THING -- ME, ANDREA, EMMA. 136 00:08:01,081 --> 00:08:04,883 WE EAT LUNCH TOGETHER, PLAY GAMES. 137 00:08:04,885 --> 00:08:10,121 I DON'T WANT TO BE IN THIS BED, BUT I CAN'T DO NOTHING ABOUT IT. 138 00:08:10,123 --> 00:08:14,326 Andrea: MY MOM HAS A PROBLEM WITH FOOD. 139 00:08:14,328 --> 00:08:16,695 IT'S A HARD SITUATION. 140 00:08:16,697 --> 00:08:19,631 I FEEL LIKE SHE IS USING FOOD AS A COMFORT 141 00:08:19,633 --> 00:08:22,634 BECAUSE SHE IS GOING THROUGH SO MUCH PAIN. 142 00:08:26,406 --> 00:08:30,842 I WOULD EAT FAST FOOD EVERY DAY IF I COULD. 143 00:08:30,844 --> 00:08:33,545 IT'S MY FAVORITE THING IN THE WORLD. 144 00:08:33,547 --> 00:08:34,813 GIVE HER HUGS. 145 00:08:34,815 --> 00:08:35,847 THANK YOU SO MUCH. LOVE YOU. 146 00:08:35,849 --> 00:08:38,316 BUT I HAVE LET FOOD STEAL MY LIFE. 147 00:08:38,318 --> 00:08:39,818 BYE, NANA. BYE, NANA. 148 00:08:39,820 --> 00:08:41,152 THANK YOU, GUYS. 149 00:08:41,154 --> 00:08:44,089 IT'S JUST NOT HUMAN TO BE THIS FAT. 150 00:08:44,091 --> 00:08:47,292 I'M NOT HUMAN. 151 00:08:47,294 --> 00:08:49,327 [ Voice breaking ] I'M A MONSTER. 152 00:08:49,329 --> 00:08:51,029 I HATE IT. 153 00:08:51,031 --> 00:08:53,532 I NEVER THOUGHT MY LIFE WOULD GET THIS WAY. 154 00:08:57,604 --> 00:09:01,406 MY ENTIRE LIFE, I'VE BEEN OBESE. 155 00:09:01,408 --> 00:09:04,009 GROWING UP, WE ALWAYS ATE GOOD DINNERS, 156 00:09:04,011 --> 00:09:06,144 BUT THEY WERE NOT HEALTHY -- 157 00:09:06,146 --> 00:09:09,080 PIZZA, HOAGIES, CHEESEBURGERS. 158 00:09:09,082 --> 00:09:12,284 BUT MY WEIGHT NEVER SEEMED TO BE A PROBLEM BACK THEN. 159 00:09:12,286 --> 00:09:14,486 I JUST KNEW MY MOM DIDN'T LIKE IT. 160 00:09:14,488 --> 00:09:18,290 I FELT LIKE SHE WAS EMBARRASSED BECAUSE OF ME BEING FAT. 161 00:09:18,292 --> 00:09:21,326 AND I DID NOT FEEL LOVED BY MY MOTHER. 162 00:09:21,328 --> 00:09:25,497 WE JUST DID NOT HAVE A MOM-DAUGHTER CONNECTION. 163 00:09:25,499 --> 00:09:28,667 I WISH MY MOM AND ME COULD HAVE HAD MORE. 164 00:09:28,669 --> 00:09:31,002 I DO REMEMBER BEING IN MIDDLE SCHOOL -- 165 00:09:31,004 --> 00:09:34,739 I WAS WEIGHING 150 POUNDS. 166 00:09:34,741 --> 00:09:37,242 NOW, GOING INTO MY TEEN YEARS, IT JUST -- 167 00:09:37,244 --> 00:09:41,279 EVERY YEAR, IT SEEMED LIKE I WAS HEAVIER AND HEAVIER. 168 00:09:41,281 --> 00:09:45,450 AND BY THE TIME GRADUATION COME AROUND, 169 00:09:45,452 --> 00:09:48,386 I WAS OVER 200 POUNDS. 170 00:09:48,388 --> 00:09:50,722 OUT OF HIGH SCHOOL, I JUST WENT RIGHT ON 171 00:09:50,724 --> 00:09:55,093 TO HAVING MY OWN PLACE, MY OWN CAR. 172 00:09:55,095 --> 00:09:56,628 I HAD MY OWN JOB. 173 00:09:56,630 --> 00:09:59,197 LIFE JUST WENT NORMAL. 174 00:09:59,199 --> 00:10:06,338 WHEN I WAS 20, THAT'S WHEN I MET MY HUSBAND, ANDREA'S DAD, JOSE. 175 00:10:06,340 --> 00:10:08,206 AND WE HAD A GOOD LIFE. 176 00:10:08,208 --> 00:10:10,909 I KNEW HE WASN'T GOOD ENOUGH FOR MY MOM, 177 00:10:10,911 --> 00:10:13,612 BECAUSE HE WAS A MEXICAN. 178 00:10:13,614 --> 00:10:16,448 AND WHEN ANDREA WAS 7 MONTHS OLD, 179 00:10:16,450 --> 00:10:18,550 I CHEATED ON HIM, AND THEN HE LEFT 180 00:10:18,552 --> 00:10:21,119 AND THEN HE STAYED GONE FOR YEARS. 181 00:10:21,121 --> 00:10:23,321 I DID NOT WANT HER TO LOSE HER DAD. 182 00:10:23,323 --> 00:10:25,957 I TAKE ALL BLAME FOR ALL THAT. 183 00:10:25,959 --> 00:10:29,361 AND THAT'S WHEN I BECAME A SINGLE MOM. 184 00:10:29,363 --> 00:10:31,529 I STARTED TENDING BAR. 185 00:10:31,531 --> 00:10:35,567 AND I MET DARYL WHEN I WAS 24. 186 00:10:35,569 --> 00:10:38,870 AND THAT'S WHEN I GOT PREGNANT WITH MY SON, CHRISTOPHER. 187 00:10:38,872 --> 00:10:42,307 AFTER HE WAS BORN, I PUT ON A LOT OF WEIGHT. 188 00:10:42,309 --> 00:10:44,476 I WAS 300, EASY. 189 00:10:44,478 --> 00:10:48,446 AND THAT WAS AT AGE 26. 190 00:10:48,448 --> 00:10:50,882 I WAS WITH DARYL FOR ABOUT FIVE YEARS. 191 00:10:50,884 --> 00:10:55,253 HE WAS AN ALCOHOLIC AND HE WAS ABUSIVE. 192 00:10:55,255 --> 00:11:00,492 BY AGE 28, I WAS THE HEAVIEST I HAD BEEN IN MY LIFE. 193 00:11:00,494 --> 00:11:02,160 I HIT 400. 194 00:11:02,162 --> 00:11:05,363 THEN THAT'S WHEN I DECIDED TO GET THAT SURGERY. 195 00:11:05,365 --> 00:11:06,998 I THOUGHT DARYL WOULD TREAT ME BETTER 196 00:11:07,000 --> 00:11:08,867 IF I HAD THE WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 197 00:11:08,869 --> 00:11:10,268 I WAS WRONG. 198 00:11:10,270 --> 00:11:12,370 THE DAY I CAME HOME FROM THE HOSPITAL 199 00:11:12,372 --> 00:11:14,539 OF HAVING WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY, 200 00:11:14,541 --> 00:11:18,109 DARYL LEFT ME A "DEAR JOHN" LETTER AND LEFT. 201 00:11:18,111 --> 00:11:20,445 THAT WAS THE END OF ME AND DARYL, 202 00:11:20,447 --> 00:11:22,947 BUT I WAS LOSING WEIGHT. 203 00:11:22,949 --> 00:11:27,252 I LOST ABOUT 150 POUNDS WHEN I GOT MY GASTRIC-BYPASS SURGERY, 204 00:11:27,254 --> 00:11:30,321 AND I STARTED PARTYING. 205 00:11:30,323 --> 00:11:32,891 SO, I ALWAYS HAD A BABYSITTER. MY KIDS WERE NEVER, EVER ALONE. 206 00:11:32,893 --> 00:11:36,361 AND I NEVER WENT OUT TILL THE KIDS WENT TO BED. 207 00:11:36,363 --> 00:11:39,864 BUT IT WAS MORE OR LESS GOING OUT EVERY NIGHT. 208 00:11:39,866 --> 00:11:42,734 I STARTED PUTTING ON WEIGHT SLOWLY. 209 00:11:42,736 --> 00:11:46,738 THAT'S WHEN I MET SOMEBODY NAMED ERIC. 210 00:11:46,740 --> 00:11:48,506 WE WENT TO THESE DANCE PARTIES 211 00:11:48,508 --> 00:11:52,243 AND BBW PARTIES FOR BIG, BEAUTIFUL WOMEN. 212 00:11:52,245 --> 00:11:55,647 THAT'S WHEN I WAS WAKING UP HUNG OVER, WAKING UP LATE. 213 00:11:55,649 --> 00:11:58,516 BUT, TO ME, I DIDN'T HAVE A PROBLEM. 214 00:11:58,518 --> 00:12:01,186 AND THEN RIGHT THERE IS WHEN IT HAPPENED. 215 00:12:01,188 --> 00:12:03,421 I STAYED DRUNK ONE WEEKEND. 216 00:12:03,423 --> 00:12:05,924 MY NEIGHBOR COME OVER AND WATCHED THE KIDS. 217 00:12:05,926 --> 00:12:07,092 AND I REMEMBER THIS. 218 00:12:07,094 --> 00:12:09,427 HE KEPT ASKING ME TO PAY HIM AHEAD OF TIME, 219 00:12:09,429 --> 00:12:11,029 INSTEAD OF WHEN I GOT HOME. 220 00:12:11,031 --> 00:12:14,232 AND I DIDN'T THINK NOTHING OF IT. 221 00:12:14,234 --> 00:12:17,902 I WENT OUT THAT NIGHT, AND THE NEXT MORNING, 222 00:12:17,904 --> 00:12:20,939 SOMEBODY'S BLOWING UP MY PHONE, SAYING, THE BABYSITTER, 223 00:12:20,941 --> 00:12:25,210 WHAT'S-HIS-NAME, HAD LEFT, AND MY KIDS WERE ALONE. 224 00:12:25,212 --> 00:12:27,178 AND SOMEBODY CALLED THE COPS. 225 00:12:27,180 --> 00:12:29,047 THE COPS CALLED MY MOM. 226 00:12:29,049 --> 00:12:31,816 AND THEN MOM TOOK THE KIDS TO HER HOUSE. 227 00:12:31,818 --> 00:12:34,052 THE NEXT DAY, THEY WERE LIKE, 228 00:12:34,054 --> 00:12:36,955 "YOU'VE GOT CHILD-ENDANGERMENT CHARGES AGAINST YOU." 229 00:12:36,957 --> 00:12:39,090 AND MY MOM WAS LETTING IT STAY THAT WAY, 230 00:12:39,092 --> 00:12:40,892 AND I'M LIKE, "WHY AREN'T YOU MORE ON MY SIDE?" 231 00:12:40,894 --> 00:12:42,060 AND SHE WASN'T. 232 00:12:42,062 --> 00:12:44,062 SHE WAS LIKE, "I'M ON THE KIDS' SIDE." 233 00:12:44,064 --> 00:12:47,499 I REMEMBER GOING TO, LIKE, AN EMERGENCY COURT HEARING 234 00:12:47,501 --> 00:12:48,800 A WEEK LATER. 235 00:12:48,802 --> 00:12:50,535 SHE COULD HAVE LET ME HAVE THEM, BUT SHE DIDN'T. 236 00:12:50,537 --> 00:12:53,004 SHE WANTED TO KEEP ANDREA. 237 00:12:53,006 --> 00:12:55,740 I COULDN'T HAVE THE KIDS SEEING THEIR MOM GO WILD 238 00:12:55,742 --> 00:12:57,776 AND DISAPPEARING AND SAY, "I'M GOING TO THE STORE" 239 00:12:57,778 --> 00:12:59,310 AND NOT COME BACK FOR DAYS 240 00:12:59,312 --> 00:13:00,545 AND, YOU KNOW, BEING DROPPED OFF 241 00:13:00,547 --> 00:13:02,981 WITH THIS BABYSITTER OR THAT BABYSITTER. 242 00:13:02,983 --> 00:13:06,184 I WANTED THEM TO HAVE STRUCTURE. 243 00:13:06,186 --> 00:13:09,821 Angela: SO, MY MOM HAD ANDREA. DARYL HAD CHRISTOPHER. 244 00:13:09,823 --> 00:13:12,924 AND I LOST MY MIND, I GUESS. 245 00:13:12,926 --> 00:13:15,059 I TRIED TO TAKE MY LIFE. 246 00:13:15,061 --> 00:13:18,897 I SPENT 30 DAYS IN THE MIDDLETOWN PSYCH WARD. 247 00:13:18,899 --> 00:13:22,267 THE DAY I LEFT, I CHECKED MYSELF IN TO A REHAB. 248 00:13:22,269 --> 00:13:24,569 THREE MONTHS, I WAS IN REHAB. 249 00:13:24,571 --> 00:13:26,337 BUT I WAS STILL GAINING WEIGHT, THOUGH. 250 00:13:26,339 --> 00:13:28,339 WE WERE EATING A LOT. 251 00:13:28,341 --> 00:13:29,607 WHEN I GOT OUT OF REHAB, 252 00:13:29,609 --> 00:13:34,312 I WAS 35 YEARS OLD, WEIGHING ALMOST 400 POUNDS. 253 00:13:34,314 --> 00:13:39,818 BUT I WENT TO LIVE WITH MY MOM SO I COULD BE WITH ANDREA. 254 00:13:39,820 --> 00:13:43,188 BUT EVEN THOUGH I GOT TO LIVE WITH MY DAUGHTER AGAIN, 255 00:13:43,190 --> 00:13:45,757 THAT DID MORE DAMAGE TO ME THAN ANYTHING, 256 00:13:45,759 --> 00:13:48,893 BECAUSE ANDREA LOOKED AT MY MOM AS HER MOM. 257 00:13:48,895 --> 00:13:51,830 SO, HERE I AM, GETTING FAT AGAIN, 258 00:13:51,832 --> 00:13:54,833 DRINKING AGAIN, LIVING IN A HOUSE 259 00:13:54,835 --> 00:13:58,503 WHERE SOMEBODY ELSE IS BEING MY KIDS' MOM. 260 00:13:58,505 --> 00:14:03,508 THAT'S WHEN I BECAME 500 POUNDS. 261 00:14:03,510 --> 00:14:05,643 THEN, AFTERWARDS, CHRISTOPHER'S DAD DIED, 262 00:14:05,645 --> 00:14:07,979 AND I GOT CHRISTOPHER. 263 00:14:07,981 --> 00:14:11,850 SO ME AND CHRISTOPHER MOVED OUT. 264 00:14:11,852 --> 00:14:13,318 RIGHT WHEN THAT HAPPENED, 265 00:14:13,320 --> 00:14:17,288 I STARTED GETTING THESE LYMPHEDEMA MASSES ON MY LEG. 266 00:14:17,290 --> 00:14:20,058 NEXT THING YOU KNOW, I'M HARDLY ABLE TO WALK. 267 00:14:20,060 --> 00:14:22,293 I STOPPED WORKING. 268 00:14:22,295 --> 00:14:27,465 AND NOW I'M 44 YEARS OLD AND WEIGH AT LEAST 600 POUNDS. 269 00:14:27,467 --> 00:14:33,071 NOW I'M A GRANDMOTHER AND I'M ASHAMED OF MY WEIGHT 270 00:14:33,073 --> 00:14:35,640 AND I'M OBESE AND I'M NASTY. 271 00:14:37,711 --> 00:14:39,978 AND THE ONLY TIME I LEAVE THE HOUSE 272 00:14:39,980 --> 00:14:41,779 IS TO GO GROCERY SHOPPING. 273 00:14:41,781 --> 00:14:43,848 [ ENGINE IDLING ] 274 00:14:43,850 --> 00:14:46,784 BUT I DON'T FIT BEHIND THE WHEEL OF MY VAN ANYMORE. 275 00:14:46,786 --> 00:14:50,121 ONLY WAY I CAN FIT IN A VEHICLE IS IF MY SON, CHRISTOPHER, 276 00:14:50,123 --> 00:14:54,192 DRIVES AND I GET IN THE PASSENGER. 277 00:14:54,194 --> 00:14:57,495 SO IF IT WASN'T FOR CHRISTOPHER TAKING ME, I COULDN'T GO. 278 00:15:00,100 --> 00:15:01,666 [ SIGHS ] 279 00:15:01,668 --> 00:15:08,072 ♪ 280 00:15:08,074 --> 00:15:10,742 Chris: I BRING MY MOM TO THE GROCERY STORE 281 00:15:10,744 --> 00:15:13,478 WHENEVER SHE ASKS. 282 00:15:13,480 --> 00:15:15,313 AT LEAST THERE'S NOT MANY PEOPLE HERE. 283 00:15:15,315 --> 00:15:19,751 JUST GET THE BIGGEST CART THEY GOT. 284 00:15:19,753 --> 00:15:22,320 ON ONE HAND, I REALIZE, WHENEVER I GET HER SNACKS, 285 00:15:22,322 --> 00:15:23,988 IT'S DEFINITELY NOT HELPING. 286 00:15:23,990 --> 00:15:25,890 ON THE OTHER HAND, SHE WISHES SHE COULD GO OUT 287 00:15:25,892 --> 00:15:27,425 AND DO NORMAL STUFF WITH ME. 288 00:15:27,427 --> 00:15:29,794 SO I'M HAPPY HELPING HER OUT. 289 00:15:29,796 --> 00:15:35,600 ♪ 290 00:15:35,602 --> 00:15:37,302 I HAVE NOT WANTED TO BE IN PUBLIC 291 00:15:37,304 --> 00:15:39,771 FOR THE PAST FOUR YEARS. 292 00:15:39,773 --> 00:15:42,640 80% OF THE TIME, MY GROCERIES ARE DELIVERED. 293 00:15:42,642 --> 00:15:44,309 I DON'T WANT TO EMBARRASS MY SON. 294 00:15:44,311 --> 00:15:47,779 I'VE PUT MY SON THROUGH ENOUGH. 295 00:15:47,781 --> 00:15:49,514 OW! 296 00:15:50,750 --> 00:15:53,318 [ SIGHS ] OKAY. 297 00:15:57,424 --> 00:15:59,791 YOU'RE GONNA HAVE TO PUSH ME. 298 00:16:03,997 --> 00:16:05,997 GET TWO. 299 00:16:09,202 --> 00:16:12,770 I'M GETTING THEM BOTH. OKAY. 300 00:16:12,772 --> 00:16:20,378 ♪ 301 00:16:20,380 --> 00:16:22,613 THESE. 302 00:16:22,615 --> 00:16:25,450 Chris: IN THE PAST, I WOULD START KIND OF DOGGIN' MY MOM 303 00:16:25,452 --> 00:16:27,051 FOR EATING SO MUCH ALL THE TIME, 304 00:16:27,053 --> 00:16:30,121 BUT IT REACHES A POINT WHERE YOU KIND OF GIVE UP ON IT. 305 00:16:30,123 --> 00:16:32,890 SO I REALLY DON'T COMPLAIN TOO MUCH ANYMORE 306 00:16:32,892 --> 00:16:35,426 WHENEVER WE GO GROCERY SHOPPING, 307 00:16:35,428 --> 00:16:37,395 BECAUSE I DEFINITELY DO FEEL GUILTY 308 00:16:37,397 --> 00:16:40,398 IF I ARGUE WITH HER ABOUT WHAT SHE SHOULD EAT. 309 00:16:40,400 --> 00:16:41,799 DON'T SAY A WORD. 310 00:16:41,801 --> 00:16:45,169 I WANT SOME OF THE ONES WITH CHOCOLATE AND PEANUT BUTTER. 311 00:16:45,171 --> 00:16:48,873 Angela: I ALWAYS, ALWAYS GET CUPCAKES AND COOKIES, 312 00:16:48,875 --> 00:16:52,210 I WANT CANDY BARS, AND I ALWAYS HAVE SOME ICE CREAM, 313 00:16:52,212 --> 00:16:54,112 BECAUSE I'M ADDICTED TO SWEETS. 314 00:16:54,114 --> 00:16:55,313 ALL RIGHT. 315 00:16:55,315 --> 00:16:59,517 AND IF WE DON'T HAVE IT IN THE HOUSE, I GET MAD. 316 00:16:59,519 --> 00:17:02,754 CHRISTOPHER -- HE DON'T WANT ME TO EAT BAD STUFF. 317 00:17:02,756 --> 00:17:06,657 BUT I'M AN ADULT. YOU CAN'T TELL ME "NO." 318 00:17:06,659 --> 00:17:09,293 AND I DON'T THINK THERE'S ONE PERSON THAT -- 319 00:17:09,295 --> 00:17:11,963 UNLESS YOU'VE BEEN EXACTLY LIKE ME, 320 00:17:11,965 --> 00:17:14,632 YOU WILL NEVER IN THIS WORLD UNDERSTAND. 321 00:17:14,634 --> 00:17:18,002 YOU DON'T WAKE UP IN THE MORNING AND YOU DON'T SAY, 322 00:17:18,004 --> 00:17:19,704 "I WANT TO BE FAT." 323 00:17:24,144 --> 00:17:28,446 IT'S NOT FUN. IT'S NOT GOOD. 324 00:17:28,448 --> 00:17:30,448 AND I JUST WANT IT TO END. 325 00:17:30,450 --> 00:17:36,854 ♪ 326 00:17:36,856 --> 00:17:43,861 ♪ 327 00:17:43,863 --> 00:17:46,197 THAT'S GOOD. 328 00:17:46,199 --> 00:17:51,335 I'M AT THE POINT I WILL NOT LAST THAT MUCH LONGER. 329 00:17:51,337 --> 00:17:56,541 AND I WANT TO BE THERE FOR ANDREA AND EMMA AND LACY. 330 00:17:56,543 --> 00:18:01,579 IF I DON'T GET HELP, I'M GOING TO EAT MYSELF TO DEATH. 331 00:18:01,581 --> 00:18:05,049 JUST ME LOSING THE MOBILITY THAT I'VE LOST, 332 00:18:05,051 --> 00:18:09,520 THE PAIN THAT I GO THROUGH, I KNOW I'LL BE DEAD NEXT YEAR. 333 00:18:09,522 --> 00:18:13,691 I HAVE NO IDEA HOW I'M STILL ALIVE TODAY. 334 00:18:13,693 --> 00:18:16,194 Travis: MY BIGGEST FEAR IS HER HEALTH ISSUES. 335 00:18:16,196 --> 00:18:18,863 THAT WOULD JUST BREAK MY HEART IF I LOST MY SIS. 336 00:18:18,865 --> 00:18:21,332 SHE'S TOO YOUNG FOR THAT, IN MY EYES. 337 00:18:21,334 --> 00:18:23,501 YOU WANT TO PICK OUT THE ICE CREAMS FOR US? 338 00:18:23,503 --> 00:18:25,536 MM-HMM. AWESOME. 339 00:18:25,538 --> 00:18:26,838 Travis: THANK YOU. 340 00:18:26,840 --> 00:18:29,340 Angela: IT'S EITHER NOW OR NEVER. IT IS. 341 00:18:29,342 --> 00:18:33,010 SO I HAVE A CHANCE IF I DO IT RIGHT NOW. 342 00:18:33,012 --> 00:18:35,847 IF I WAIT SIX MONTHS, IF I WAIT A YEAR, 343 00:18:35,849 --> 00:18:38,316 IT'S NOT GONNA HAPPEN. 344 00:18:38,318 --> 00:18:41,686 SO THIS IS IT. LIKE, THIS IS IT. 345 00:18:41,688 --> 00:18:44,021 IF I DON'T DO THIS RIGHT NOW, 346 00:18:44,023 --> 00:18:46,390 THEN JUST SIGN MY DEATH CERTIFICATE, 347 00:18:46,392 --> 00:18:48,392 BECAUSE I'M GONE, I'M DONE. 348 00:18:58,238 --> 00:19:05,843 ♪ 349 00:19:05,845 --> 00:19:14,552 ♪ 350 00:19:14,554 --> 00:19:23,628 ♪ 351 00:19:23,630 --> 00:19:26,697 [ BLOWING ] 352 00:19:26,699 --> 00:19:30,101 TODAY HAS BEEN AN ABSOLUTE ROLLER COASTER. 353 00:19:30,103 --> 00:19:32,803 ONE MINUTE, I THINK, "WOW. THIS IS GONNA WORK." 354 00:19:32,805 --> 00:19:34,672 THE NEXT MINUTE IS, "NO, IT'S NOT GONNA WORK." 355 00:19:34,674 --> 00:19:38,209 TO THE NEXT MINUTE, I'M PISSED OFF. 356 00:19:38,211 --> 00:19:41,245 I'M GOING TO MEET DR. NOW IN HOUSTON, 357 00:19:41,247 --> 00:19:43,480 BECAUSE HE WILL WORK WITH PATIENTS 358 00:19:43,482 --> 00:19:48,386 NOT ONLY SUPER-OBESE, BUT THE LYMPHEDEMA PATIENTS. 359 00:19:48,388 --> 00:19:50,154 I HAVE TO FIND A WAY. 360 00:19:50,156 --> 00:19:51,622 IF I DON'T FIND A WAY, 361 00:19:51,624 --> 00:19:53,591 THEN WE'LL USE ALL THE MONEY ON MY CREDIT CARD 362 00:19:53,593 --> 00:19:56,360 AND MAKE FUNERAL ARRANGEMENTS. 363 00:19:56,362 --> 00:19:58,729 SO I'LL BE DOING ONE OR THE OTHER THIS WEEK. 364 00:19:58,731 --> 00:20:00,631 [ Telephone ringing ] 365 00:20:00,633 --> 00:20:03,067 Barbara: YEAH? Angela: MOM? 366 00:20:03,069 --> 00:20:06,470 YEAH? WHAT ARE YOU DOING? 367 00:20:06,472 --> 00:20:10,541 WATCHING THE GIRLS PLAY OUTSIDE. 368 00:20:10,543 --> 00:20:13,444 [ Voice breaking ] ARE YOU SURE YOU GUYS CAN'T HELP ME? 369 00:20:13,446 --> 00:20:15,379 ANGEL, WE CANNOT DO IT. 370 00:20:15,381 --> 00:20:17,848 YOUR DAD CANNOT TRAVEL. [ SNIFFLES ] 371 00:20:17,850 --> 00:20:19,684 THERE'S JUST NO WAY. 372 00:20:19,686 --> 00:20:23,154 I JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M GONNA DO. 373 00:20:23,156 --> 00:20:25,022 TALK TO DONNIE AND JANE. 374 00:20:25,024 --> 00:20:28,526 DONNIE SAID HE WOULD HELP YOU AS MUCH AS HE COULD. 375 00:20:28,528 --> 00:20:30,728 OH, LET ME CALL JANE. 376 00:20:30,730 --> 00:20:33,464 [ SNIFFLES ] 377 00:20:33,466 --> 00:20:35,199 [ Telephone ringing ] 378 00:20:35,201 --> 00:20:38,202 YOU HAVE REACHED THE VOICEMAIL BOX... 379 00:20:38,204 --> 00:20:40,171 HEY, AUNT JANE AND UNCLE DONNIE. 380 00:20:40,173 --> 00:20:42,974 WE'RE JUST HAVING A HARD TIME FINDING A WAY TO TEXAS. 381 00:20:42,976 --> 00:20:44,175 [ SNIFFLES ] 382 00:20:44,177 --> 00:20:46,244 I KNOW YOU'VE HELPED ME. YOU'VE DONE EVERYTHING. 383 00:20:46,246 --> 00:20:48,679 AND I'D APPRECIATE IT. I DON'T KNOW. 384 00:20:48,681 --> 00:20:51,949 CALL ME LATER AND WE CAN TALK. LOVE YOU. BYE. 385 00:20:51,951 --> 00:20:53,985 [ SNIFFLES, SIGHS ] 386 00:20:53,987 --> 00:20:57,088 I DON'T KNOW WHY I THOUGHT THIS WAS GONNA BE EASY. 387 00:20:57,090 --> 00:20:59,323 NOTHING IN LIFE IS EASY. 388 00:20:59,325 --> 00:21:02,460 THERE'S ONE PERSON THAT MIGHT BE ABLE TO HELP ME, 389 00:21:02,462 --> 00:21:06,297 BUT I'M SCARED TO ASK. 390 00:21:06,299 --> 00:21:09,667 ERIC IS AN EX-BOYFRIEND. 391 00:21:09,669 --> 00:21:14,672 AND ERIC IS A VERY KIND-HEARTED PERSON. 392 00:21:14,674 --> 00:21:19,744 HE WENT HIS WAY, I WENT MY WAY, BUT WE ALWAYS REMAINED FRIENDS. 393 00:21:19,746 --> 00:21:22,513 HE IS A LAST RESORT, BUT ERIC'S COMING OVER 394 00:21:22,515 --> 00:21:25,283 AND MAYBE GOING TO BE DRIVING ME. 395 00:21:25,285 --> 00:21:31,922 ♪ 396 00:21:31,924 --> 00:21:33,557 [ KNOCK ON DOOR ] 397 00:21:33,559 --> 00:21:35,226 COME IN! 398 00:21:37,930 --> 00:21:39,230 OH, MY GOSH! 399 00:21:39,232 --> 00:21:40,631 HI, HONEY. 400 00:21:40,633 --> 00:21:42,533 HELLO. 401 00:21:42,535 --> 00:21:43,701 HOW'S MY GIRL? GOOD. 402 00:21:43,703 --> 00:21:45,369 HOW YOU DOING? ALL RIGHT. 403 00:21:45,371 --> 00:21:47,571 YOU CAME QUICK. 404 00:21:47,573 --> 00:21:50,107 MAN, YOU SMELL GOOD. DON'T I ALWAYS? 405 00:21:50,109 --> 00:21:52,043 WHAT ARE YOU WEARING? YOUR FAVORITE. 406 00:21:52,045 --> 00:21:54,779 YOU CAN SCOOT THAT ANY WHICH WAY AND SIT DOWN 407 00:21:54,781 --> 00:21:56,947 IN THE RECLINER OVER THERE, WHEREVER. 408 00:21:59,385 --> 00:22:00,785 WHAT'S NEW? 409 00:22:00,787 --> 00:22:03,654 OH, COMING TO SEE YOU. [ SIGHS ] 410 00:22:03,656 --> 00:22:07,692 UH, WELL, SO, BASICALLY, 411 00:22:07,694 --> 00:22:11,028 I FINALLY GOT THE OKAY TO SEE THE DOCTOR. 412 00:22:11,030 --> 00:22:13,264 AND -- OH, [Voice breaking] I DON'T WANT TO CRY. 413 00:22:13,266 --> 00:22:14,231 [ CHUCKLES ] 414 00:22:14,233 --> 00:22:15,666 SO, BUT I HAVE TO GO TO TEXAS. 415 00:22:15,668 --> 00:22:16,734 HE'S IN TEXAS. 416 00:22:16,736 --> 00:22:21,439 BUT I HAVE NOBODY TO TAKE ME. 417 00:22:21,441 --> 00:22:26,210 SO I'M BASICALLY WONDERING IF YOU'LL TAKE ME TO TEXAS. 418 00:22:26,212 --> 00:22:28,179 AND IT'S NOT JUST DRIVING. 419 00:22:28,181 --> 00:22:30,848 I HAVE TO PUT A MATTRESS IN THE BACK OF A MINIVAN 420 00:22:30,850 --> 00:22:32,917 BECAUSE MY LEGS HAVE TO STAY UP. 421 00:22:32,919 --> 00:22:36,354 I CANNOT HAVE THEM BENT MORE THAN LIKE 15 MINUTES. 422 00:22:36,356 --> 00:22:38,022 SO I HAVE TO HAVE MY LEGS STRAIGHT 423 00:22:38,024 --> 00:22:42,193 AND I'VE GOT TO BE ON MY SIDE, OFF AND ON. 424 00:22:42,195 --> 00:22:44,061 IT'S JUST GONNA BE A WEIRD ROAD TRIP. 425 00:22:44,063 --> 00:22:46,130 I WON'T BE LIKE THE OLDEN DAYS AT ALL. 426 00:22:46,132 --> 00:22:47,298 [ CHUCKLES ] 427 00:22:47,300 --> 00:22:50,634 BUT YOU ARE MY LAST HOPE. 428 00:22:50,636 --> 00:22:52,737 I HAVE NOTHING ELSE, NOBODY ELSE. 429 00:22:52,739 --> 00:22:56,340 SO, DO YOU WANT TO GO ON A ROAD TRIP, ERIC? 430 00:22:56,342 --> 00:22:58,209 AND I'M REALLY THINKING ABOUT YOU 431 00:22:58,211 --> 00:23:00,111 BECAUSE YOU'RE A COWBOYS FAN. 432 00:23:00,113 --> 00:23:01,245 [ CHUCKLES ] THAT'S TRUE. 433 00:23:01,247 --> 00:23:04,215 NEVER BEEN THERE. 434 00:23:04,217 --> 00:23:06,283 LET'S DO IT. 435 00:23:06,285 --> 00:23:09,286 [ Chuckling ] YOU SURE? 436 00:23:09,288 --> 00:23:11,021 IT'S BEEN 10 YEARS. 437 00:23:11,023 --> 00:23:12,857 DON'T MATTER IF IT WAS 20. 438 00:23:12,859 --> 00:23:14,158 I'D STILL DO IT FOR YOU. 439 00:23:14,160 --> 00:23:15,659 I APPRECIATE IT. 440 00:23:15,661 --> 00:23:20,731 I JUST NEED DRIVER, FRIEND, SOMEBODY TO TALK TO, 441 00:23:20,733 --> 00:23:24,368 LISTEN TO ME WHINE, CRY, LAUGH. 442 00:23:24,370 --> 00:23:26,137 JUST LIKE THE OLD DAYS. JUST LIKE THE OLD -- 443 00:23:26,139 --> 00:23:28,439 HEY, NOT REALLY. [ LAUGHS ] 444 00:23:28,441 --> 00:23:34,412 AND I'M GONNA SAY WE CAN BE ON THE ROAD BY 5:00? 445 00:23:34,414 --> 00:23:36,480 I -- I CAN DO WHATEVER. OKAY. 446 00:23:36,482 --> 00:23:40,451 I JUST GOT TO GO PACK, AND I'LL JUST WAIT FOR YOUR CALL. 447 00:23:40,453 --> 00:23:42,420 ALL RIGHT, HON, GIVE ME A HUG. I'M GONNA LET YOU GO. 448 00:23:42,422 --> 00:23:44,955 ALL RIGHT, BABE. THANK YOU SO MUCH. 449 00:23:44,957 --> 00:23:47,258 YEAH, IT AIN'T GONNA BE NO PROBLEM, HONEY. 450 00:23:47,260 --> 00:23:48,659 KEEP THAT COLOGNE. 451 00:23:48,661 --> 00:23:50,628 OH, WELL, IT'S THE STUFF YOU PICKED OUT. 452 00:23:50,630 --> 00:23:53,197 GOD, IT SMELLS SO GOOD. 453 00:23:53,199 --> 00:23:55,366 ALL RIGHT, HONEY. THANK YOU. 454 00:23:55,368 --> 00:23:57,902 I'LL SEE YOU LATER. ALL RIGHT. BYE-BYE. 455 00:24:01,307 --> 00:24:03,541 Eric: I WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR HER. 456 00:24:03,543 --> 00:24:05,276 SHE NEEDS TO GET TO TEXAS. 457 00:24:05,278 --> 00:24:06,977 I'VE BEEN WANTING TO GO ON A ROAD TRIP, 458 00:24:06,979 --> 00:24:09,346 SO HERE WE ARE. 459 00:24:09,348 --> 00:24:12,683 IT MIGHT BE DIFFICULT. I'M DEFINITELY NERVOUS. 460 00:24:12,685 --> 00:24:15,219 BUT WE'LL BE OKAY. 461 00:24:15,221 --> 00:24:18,122 Angela: I'M EXCITED I'M GONNA GO TO TEXAS, 462 00:24:18,124 --> 00:24:20,691 BUT NOW THAT I'M SITTING HERE THINKING ABOUT IT, 463 00:24:20,693 --> 00:24:23,627 THIS TRIP IS GOING TO BE VERY HARD. 464 00:24:23,629 --> 00:24:25,729 I'VE ALREADY GOT MY NERVES WORKED UP. 465 00:24:25,731 --> 00:24:28,632 BUT I KNOW IT IS WORTH IT IF IT MEANS 466 00:24:28,634 --> 00:24:30,701 I CAN GET MY LIFE BACK TOGETHER. 467 00:24:30,703 --> 00:24:40,444 ♪ 468 00:24:40,446 --> 00:24:42,913 TODAY HAS BEEN A BUSY, BUSY, BUSY DAY 469 00:24:42,915 --> 00:24:47,251 GETTING EVERYTHING PACKED TO GO TO HOUSTON. 470 00:24:47,253 --> 00:24:51,121 MY FRIEND ERIC IS GOING TO BE DRIVING ME. 471 00:24:51,123 --> 00:24:54,992 NOBODY ELSE IN THE FAMILY OR FRIENDS COULD HELP ME. 472 00:24:54,994 --> 00:24:57,628 PUT THAT ON THE FRONT PORCH. 473 00:24:57,630 --> 00:25:02,766 MY DAUGHTER IS BEING THE MOST SUPPORTIVE PERSON IN THIS WORLD. 474 00:25:02,768 --> 00:25:06,170 LACY, AN 11-YEAR-OLD, IS BEING SUPPORTIVE. 475 00:25:08,975 --> 00:25:11,876 I'M VERY, VERY MAD. 476 00:25:11,878 --> 00:25:15,379 MY MOTHER, MY FATHER, MY BROTHER IS NOT BEING SUPPORTIVE. 477 00:25:15,381 --> 00:25:16,981 I UNDERSTAND THEY CAN'T TAKE ME. 478 00:25:16,983 --> 00:25:19,817 OKAY. I UNDERSTAND, REALLY. 479 00:25:19,819 --> 00:25:22,419 I CAN'T BE MAD, BUT I AM MAD. 480 00:25:22,421 --> 00:25:24,989 I'VE NOT EVEN BASICALLY STARTED 481 00:25:24,991 --> 00:25:27,358 AND I'M MENTALLY WORE OUT ALREADY. 482 00:25:29,762 --> 00:25:31,695 Andrea: I'M VERY WORRIED FOR MY MOM. 483 00:25:31,697 --> 00:25:35,332 THIS IS NOT A GOOD TRIP FOR HER TO TAKE, HEALTHWISE. 484 00:25:35,334 --> 00:25:38,802 A CAR TRIP LIKE THIS IS MUCH HARDER ON HER BODY 485 00:25:38,804 --> 00:25:42,973 THAN IT WOULD BE SOMEONE AT A NORMAL WEIGHT. 486 00:25:42,975 --> 00:25:47,645 HER HEART COULD GIVE UP, BECAUSE HER VALVES ARE VERY WEAK. 487 00:25:47,647 --> 00:25:51,415 WITH HER LYMPHEDEMA MASSES, THEY COULD SWELL AND BURST. 488 00:25:51,417 --> 00:25:54,285 AND, ALSO, SHE COULD HAVE BLOOD CLOTS IN HER LEGS. 489 00:25:54,287 --> 00:25:56,186 BUT SHE HAS TO DO IT, BECAUSE HER HEALTH 490 00:25:56,188 --> 00:25:59,290 IS NOT GONNA GET HER THROUGH THE NEXT YEAR. 491 00:25:59,292 --> 00:26:02,760 HEY, EVERYTHING'S LOADED, READY TO GO. 492 00:26:02,762 --> 00:26:05,362 Angela: OKAY. I GOT IT. 493 00:26:05,364 --> 00:26:08,165 YOU SURE? YEP. 494 00:26:08,167 --> 00:26:09,934 ALL RIGHT. 495 00:26:09,936 --> 00:26:11,936 Eric: THERE IS NO POSSIBLE WAY ANGELA COULD DO THIS 496 00:26:11,938 --> 00:26:14,071 BY HERSELF -- NONE AT ALL. 497 00:26:14,073 --> 00:26:17,408 SHE'S GOT TO HAVE HELP. AND SHE ASKED. I'M HERE. 498 00:26:17,410 --> 00:26:19,476 I BELIEVE THIS IS ANGELA'S CHANCE TO SAVE HER LIFE, 499 00:26:19,478 --> 00:26:22,446 AND HER ONLY ONE. 500 00:26:22,448 --> 00:26:24,481 NOW, I KNOW I WON'T BE ABLE TO GET IN THAT. 501 00:26:24,483 --> 00:26:25,783 I KNOW I WON'T. 502 00:26:25,785 --> 00:26:27,785 Andrea: IF YOU CAN MOVE YOUR LEFT WITH YOUR LEFT, 503 00:26:27,787 --> 00:26:30,087 YOU CAN SCOOT UP ON THAT MATTRESS. 504 00:26:30,089 --> 00:26:32,489 Bub: THE SIDES ARE LOW, BUT THEN AGAIN, 505 00:26:32,491 --> 00:26:34,291 THE BED IS NOT RIGHT UP -- 506 00:26:34,293 --> 00:26:36,760 MOM, THE SIDE WILL BE EASIER. 507 00:26:41,133 --> 00:26:43,300 ALL RIGHT, LET BUB PUT THE PILLOWS DOWN. 508 00:26:43,302 --> 00:26:45,002 Angela: OKAY. 509 00:26:45,004 --> 00:26:51,241 ♪ 510 00:26:51,243 --> 00:26:52,743 NOBODY BEHIND ME, PLEASE. 511 00:26:52,745 --> 00:27:01,051 ♪ 512 00:27:01,053 --> 00:27:02,653 [ GRUNTS ] 513 00:27:02,655 --> 00:27:05,422 THERE'S THE MOTOR. 514 00:27:05,424 --> 00:27:07,658 I NEED OXYGEN. OKAY. 515 00:27:07,660 --> 00:27:10,561 [ SIGHING ] 516 00:27:10,563 --> 00:27:13,831 NOW THAT IT'S TIME, I'M SCARED, 517 00:27:13,833 --> 00:27:17,501 BECAUSE IN MY MIND, I KEEP GOING OVER THE BAD STUFF. 518 00:27:17,503 --> 00:27:20,671 LIKE, I CAN'T GET IN A VAN TO GO UP THE STREET. 519 00:27:20,673 --> 00:27:24,475 HOW AM I GONNA GO 15 TO 20 HOURS? 520 00:27:24,477 --> 00:27:27,077 IS IT WORTH TAKING A CHANCE OF DYING? 521 00:27:27,079 --> 00:27:29,313 BECAUSE EITHER I'LL DIE TRYING 522 00:27:29,315 --> 00:27:31,882 OR I'M JUST GONNA BE DEAD NEXT YEAR ANYWAYS. 523 00:27:31,884 --> 00:27:35,085 SO WHY NOT DIE TRYING? 524 00:27:35,087 --> 00:27:37,254 I JUST GOT THIS FEELING, LIKE, IN MY GUT 525 00:27:37,256 --> 00:27:39,356 THAT I WISH I JUST NOT GO. 526 00:27:39,358 --> 00:27:42,092 I'M SCARED, BUT I HAVE TO GET THERE. 527 00:27:42,094 --> 00:27:44,395 I JUST HAVE TO. 528 00:27:54,106 --> 00:28:02,746 ♪ 529 00:28:02,748 --> 00:28:04,948 Andrea: WE ARE GOING TO HOUSTON, TEXAS, 530 00:28:04,950 --> 00:28:07,151 TO SEE DR. NOW. 531 00:28:07,153 --> 00:28:09,953 WE GOT ABOUT 15 HOURS. 532 00:28:09,955 --> 00:28:12,423 YOU READY FOR THIS? Andrea: NOT AT ALL. 533 00:28:12,425 --> 00:28:16,093 WELL, YOU GOT NO CHOICE. I SHOULD BE, BUT I'M NOT. 534 00:28:16,095 --> 00:28:17,294 [ CHUCKLES ] 535 00:28:19,799 --> 00:28:22,533 I WAS, LIKE, REALLY NERVOUS, GETTING IN THE VAN -- 536 00:28:22,535 --> 00:28:24,568 JUST GETTING IN. 537 00:28:24,570 --> 00:28:30,808 AS MUCH AS I'VE PUT INTO THIS, I WAS CLOSE TO SAYING JUST "NO." 538 00:28:30,810 --> 00:28:32,476 BUT NOW THAT WE'RE DRIVING -- 539 00:28:32,478 --> 00:28:34,678 I THINK WE'RE ABOUT A HALF-HOUR IN -- 540 00:28:34,680 --> 00:28:39,283 WE JUST LEFT OHIO AND WE ARE IN KENTUCKY -- 541 00:28:39,285 --> 00:28:43,087 I AM ALMOST GONNA SAY THIS MOMENT -- 542 00:28:43,089 --> 00:28:46,323 I DON'T KNOW IF IT'S THE EXTRA PAIN PILL I TOOK, 543 00:28:46,325 --> 00:28:48,225 BUT I'M ALMOST A LITTLE MORE COMFORTABLE 544 00:28:48,227 --> 00:28:51,261 THAN I AM SITTING IN MY BED, SO I THINK WE'RE GOOD. 545 00:28:51,263 --> 00:28:56,266 ♪ 546 00:28:56,268 --> 00:29:02,139 ♪ 547 00:29:02,141 --> 00:29:03,874 WE'RE IN BOWLING GREEN. 548 00:29:03,876 --> 00:29:07,010 WE DROVE EXACTLY FOUR HOURS, 549 00:29:07,012 --> 00:29:10,114 AND THAT WAS EXACTLY ENOUGH TIME. 550 00:29:10,116 --> 00:29:11,915 I REALLY WANTED TO GET OUT OF THAT VAN 551 00:29:11,917 --> 00:29:15,052 AND TRY TO GET A GOOD NIGHT'S SLEEP. 552 00:29:15,054 --> 00:29:18,856 I'M HOPING THIS HOTEL ROOM IS EQUIPPED FOR A PERSON MY SIZE. 553 00:29:18,858 --> 00:29:22,326 AND I REALLY WANT TO SLEEP GOOD. 554 00:29:22,328 --> 00:29:24,128 HOW FAR IS THE ROOM, ERIC? 555 00:29:24,130 --> 00:29:25,629 IT'S -- I'LL GO CHECK. 556 00:29:25,631 --> 00:29:27,998 NO, I NEED OUT. I NEED TO START GETTING THERE. 557 00:29:28,000 --> 00:29:29,133 OH, I KNOW THAT. OH. 558 00:29:29,135 --> 00:29:30,300 Andrea: [ LAUGHS ] 559 00:29:30,302 --> 00:29:32,269 IF I GOT A WALL TO HANG ON TO, I'M BETTER. 560 00:29:32,271 --> 00:29:35,739 I HONESTLY FIGURED WE'D STOP EVERY HOUR, AND WE DIDN'T. 561 00:29:35,741 --> 00:29:38,375 WE COME STRAIGHT THROUGH, WHICH MADE ME HAPPY. 562 00:29:40,546 --> 00:29:42,179 AND I'M JUST GLAD TO BE HERE, IN ALL HONESTY. 563 00:29:42,181 --> 00:29:44,148 I'M TIRED. 564 00:29:44,150 --> 00:29:46,817 TONIGHT, WE GET A GOOD NIGHT'S REST. 565 00:29:46,819 --> 00:29:49,353 TOMORROW MORNING, WE HEAD OUT. 566 00:29:49,355 --> 00:29:52,956 HOPEFULLY, WE CAN GO A LITTLE FURTHER THAN WE DID TODAY. 567 00:29:52,958 --> 00:29:55,425 WE'LL SEE. YOU KNOW, IT'S ON ANGELA. 568 00:29:55,427 --> 00:29:57,394 SHE'S GONNA CALL THE SHOTS. 569 00:29:57,396 --> 00:30:00,164 I'D LIKE TO GET -- MAKE SOME DISTANCE TOMORROW, THOUGH. 570 00:30:03,836 --> 00:30:06,470 WHAT DO YOU WANT TO EAT? 571 00:30:06,472 --> 00:30:07,871 I SEEN THEY HAVE A RESTAURANT HERE. 572 00:30:07,873 --> 00:30:09,072 YEAH. 573 00:30:09,074 --> 00:30:10,474 I MEAN, IF THEY GOT PORK CHOPS AND POTATOES, 574 00:30:10,476 --> 00:30:12,242 IF THEY'VE GOT BURGER. 575 00:30:12,244 --> 00:30:13,977 I WILL GO FIND OUT. 576 00:30:17,216 --> 00:30:20,350 Angela: SO FAR, I AM VERY HAPPY THAT ERIC BROUGHT ME. 577 00:30:20,352 --> 00:30:22,986 I'VE ABSOLUTELY FELT SO SAFE. 578 00:30:22,988 --> 00:30:26,089 AND I REALLY THINK IF MY MOM OR DAD 579 00:30:26,091 --> 00:30:29,393 WOULD HAVE BROUGHT ME, IT WOULD HAVE BEEN AWFUL. 580 00:30:29,395 --> 00:30:31,862 I WAS UPSET AT ALL MY FAMILY. 581 00:30:31,864 --> 00:30:33,997 I WAS SO UPSET AT ALL OF THEM. 582 00:30:33,999 --> 00:30:36,733 AND NOW I KIND OF FEEL BAD, BECAUSE NOW, LIKE, 583 00:30:36,735 --> 00:30:39,837 I REALIZE THIS WAS THE BEST THING. 584 00:30:39,839 --> 00:30:41,205 HEY. 585 00:30:41,207 --> 00:30:42,272 WHAT'D YOU FIND US? 586 00:30:42,274 --> 00:30:44,908 YOU GET A MUSHROOM-SWISS BURGER. 587 00:30:44,910 --> 00:30:47,077 OOH. AND I GET A BURGER. 588 00:30:47,079 --> 00:30:48,545 AWESOME. AND FRIES. 589 00:30:48,547 --> 00:30:51,715 AWESOME. THAT WILL WORK. 590 00:30:54,453 --> 00:30:58,521 WE'RE FOUR HOURS IN, AND -- I DON'T KNOW, WHAT? -- 591 00:30:58,523 --> 00:31:01,692 12 MORE HOURS TO GO. 592 00:31:01,694 --> 00:31:03,460 TOMORROW'S GONNA BE A REALLY LONG DAY, 593 00:31:03,462 --> 00:31:05,629 AND NOW I'VE ALREADY GOT MY NERVES WORKED UP, 594 00:31:05,631 --> 00:31:07,998 BECAUSE I THINK TOMORROW MIGHT BE HARDER THAN TODAY. 595 00:31:08,000 --> 00:31:10,767 I'M HOPING -- I'M GONNA TRY TO GO AS FAR AS WE CAN. 596 00:31:10,769 --> 00:31:18,775 ♪ 597 00:31:18,777 --> 00:31:26,016 ♪ 598 00:31:26,018 --> 00:31:27,351 I DON'T FEEL GOOD AT ALL. 599 00:31:27,353 --> 00:31:30,654 I FEEL REALLY -- I FEEL LIKE I'M 100 POUNDS HEAVIER. 600 00:31:30,656 --> 00:31:33,190 I FEEL LIKE MY LEGS WON'T GO TOGETHER. 601 00:31:33,192 --> 00:31:36,226 I FEEL LIKE I ATE ALL NIGHT LONG AND PARTIED, 602 00:31:36,228 --> 00:31:38,695 AND I DON'T FEEL GOOD. 603 00:31:38,697 --> 00:31:41,298 I JUST DON'T KNOW. HONESTLY, THE BED. 604 00:31:41,300 --> 00:31:43,467 COULD HAVE BEEN THE WAY I SLEPT. 605 00:31:43,469 --> 00:31:45,936 I DIDN'T EVEN GET A GOOD, HOT SHOWER THIS MORNING. 606 00:31:45,938 --> 00:31:49,840 THE PLAN TODAY IS JUST STAY ON THE ROAD AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE, 607 00:31:49,842 --> 00:31:51,074 GO AS FAST AS POSSIBLE -- 608 00:31:51,076 --> 00:31:53,977 SAFELY -- GET IT DONE AND OVER WITH. 609 00:31:53,979 --> 00:31:57,314 I LOST MY EXCITEMENT, SO I'M HOPING I GET IT BACK. 610 00:31:59,118 --> 00:32:01,685 [ BLOWING ] 611 00:32:01,687 --> 00:32:04,721 Eric: YOU GOT IT? [ Chuckling ] I DON'T KNOW. 612 00:32:04,723 --> 00:32:07,424 ALL OF A SUDDEN, I JUST STARTED TO HURT REALLY BAD. 613 00:32:10,763 --> 00:32:12,429 USUALLY, IF I'M ON MY LEFT SIDE, 614 00:32:12,431 --> 00:32:15,699 I CAN LIFT MY MASS UP AND I'M COMFORTABLE. 615 00:32:15,701 --> 00:32:17,267 AND, TODAY, IT'S 10 TIMES WORSE. 616 00:32:17,269 --> 00:32:19,770 IT'S HUGE. IT'S BURNING. 617 00:32:19,772 --> 00:32:21,672 I DON'T WANT IT TO BE A ROUGH RIDE. 618 00:32:21,674 --> 00:32:23,740 I JUST THINK IT'S GONNA BE. 619 00:32:23,742 --> 00:32:26,643 AND I'M TRYING NOT TO BE BITCHY TOWARDS ERIC, 620 00:32:26,645 --> 00:32:28,378 BUT I FEEL BITCHY. 621 00:32:32,351 --> 00:32:34,217 WE MADE IT. Angela: OH, HERE WE GO. 622 00:32:34,219 --> 00:32:36,119 "WELCOME TO TEXAS." 623 00:32:36,121 --> 00:32:37,721 GIVE ME A FIVE. 624 00:32:39,792 --> 00:32:41,525 YES. 625 00:32:43,595 --> 00:32:45,963 OKAY, IT'S RIGHT UP HERE. 626 00:32:45,965 --> 00:32:47,331 YOU'RE GONNA TAKE A RIGHT. 627 00:32:47,333 --> 00:32:50,500 I'M GONNA TAKE A RIGHT. 628 00:32:50,502 --> 00:32:52,135 WELL, WE'RE HERE, HONEY. 629 00:32:52,137 --> 00:32:54,171 THIS ACTUALLY WAS PERFECT TIMING AGAIN, 630 00:32:54,173 --> 00:32:55,739 'CAUSE I'M DONE. 631 00:32:55,741 --> 00:32:58,508 I'M GONNA BE ABLE TO GET OUT, BUT IT'S GONNA BE HARD. 632 00:32:58,510 --> 00:33:01,411 ALL RIGHT. ALL RIGHT. [ SIGHS ] 633 00:33:01,413 --> 00:33:04,181 I'LL HOLD YOU. 634 00:33:04,183 --> 00:33:06,450 AS SOON AS I GOT HERE, MY STOMACH IS SWOLLEN. 635 00:33:06,452 --> 00:33:09,486 MY LEG IS BURNING, HUGE. 636 00:33:09,488 --> 00:33:10,887 AND NOW I FEEL LIKE I'M DYING. 637 00:33:10,889 --> 00:33:14,024 I, LIKE, FEEL WORSE THAN I'VE FELT THIS ENTIRE TRIP. 638 00:33:16,795 --> 00:33:19,730 Eric: ANGELA'S ABILITY TO WALK -- 639 00:33:19,732 --> 00:33:21,865 SHE HAS A HARD TIME. 640 00:33:21,867 --> 00:33:24,568 I CAN SEE THAT SHE NEEDS HELP. 641 00:33:24,570 --> 00:33:26,536 IN MY OPINION, SHE SHOULD PROBABLY HAVE ONE OF THEM 642 00:33:26,538 --> 00:33:29,573 STEP-WALKER THINGS, YOU KNOW, JUST FOR BALANCE. 643 00:33:29,575 --> 00:33:31,108 BUT... 644 00:33:31,110 --> 00:33:32,843 OH! OKAY, 645 00:33:32,845 --> 00:33:36,446 I WANT TO GET THE WALL. 646 00:33:36,448 --> 00:33:39,049 SHE'S DOING IT, SO I CAN'T TELL HER SHE CAN'T, 647 00:33:39,051 --> 00:33:40,384 'CAUSE SHE IS. 648 00:33:40,386 --> 00:33:42,853 BUT SHE'S HAVING A HARD TIME RIGHT NOW. 649 00:33:42,855 --> 00:33:45,122 OKAY. 650 00:33:45,124 --> 00:33:48,425 LET ME GO FIRST. 651 00:33:48,427 --> 00:33:49,760 YOU GO. 652 00:33:49,762 --> 00:33:51,495 I'M GOOD. 653 00:33:56,268 --> 00:33:58,101 OH, NO! 654 00:33:58,103 --> 00:34:00,070 WHAT? IT'S NOT A HANDICAP. 655 00:34:00,072 --> 00:34:02,572 OH, SHE SAID IT WAS. NO. 656 00:34:02,574 --> 00:34:04,775 [BLEEP] 657 00:34:08,047 --> 00:34:10,313 THERE'S NO POSSIBLE WAY. 658 00:34:10,315 --> 00:34:11,515 NONE. 659 00:34:11,517 --> 00:34:13,283 IT'S JUST A REGULAR FULL-SIZED BATHTUB. 660 00:34:13,285 --> 00:34:14,951 [BLEEP] 661 00:34:14,953 --> 00:34:16,887 YOU WANT ME TO GO ASK THEM ABOUT IT? 662 00:34:16,889 --> 00:34:18,989 YEAH. OKAY. 663 00:34:18,991 --> 00:34:23,460 Angela: THE FIRST THING I SEEN WAS THE BATHTUB. 664 00:34:23,462 --> 00:34:25,462 IT'S NOT A ROLL-IN SHOWER. 665 00:34:25,464 --> 00:34:27,431 HOW YOU WANT I'M GONNA GET IN THAT SHOWER? 666 00:34:27,433 --> 00:34:29,766 DO WHEELIES? I MEAN, COME ON. 667 00:34:29,768 --> 00:34:31,802 I'M JUST REALLY PISSED. 668 00:34:31,804 --> 00:34:35,205 THERE'S NOT EVEN A HANDICAP SEAT IN THERE. 669 00:34:35,207 --> 00:34:37,107 A LOT OF PEOPLE THINK THAT'S MINOR. 670 00:34:37,109 --> 00:34:38,708 IT'S NOT. 671 00:34:38,710 --> 00:34:42,879 WHEN YOU'RE DRIVING IN A VAN WITH BLANKETS 672 00:34:42,881 --> 00:34:47,117 TUCKED UP UNDER YOUR FOLDS AND YOUR MASS, 673 00:34:47,119 --> 00:34:48,485 YOU ARE SWEATY. 674 00:34:48,487 --> 00:34:50,754 I DON'T CARE IF IT'S A.C. 675 00:34:50,756 --> 00:34:52,889 YOU WANT TO BE CLEAN AND YOU DON'T FEEL CLEAN. 676 00:34:52,891 --> 00:34:54,391 A PERSON MY SIZE -- 677 00:34:54,393 --> 00:34:59,196 I DON'T CARE HOW MUCH YOU CLEAN, YOU'RE DIRTY. 678 00:34:59,198 --> 00:35:01,665 THIS IS NOT A HANDICAP ROOM! 679 00:35:03,869 --> 00:35:05,202 [ SIGHS ] 680 00:35:13,078 --> 00:35:17,647 ♪ 681 00:35:17,649 --> 00:35:21,017 Angela: I'M PAYING EXTRA MONEY AT A NICE HOTEL, 682 00:35:21,019 --> 00:35:23,453 AND THEY THINK THIS IS A HANDICAP ROOM. 683 00:35:23,455 --> 00:35:25,922 THIS IS NOT A HANDICAP ROOM! 684 00:35:25,924 --> 00:35:28,725 ERIC WENT DOWN THE HALL AND GET A ROOM THAT WE CAN STAY IN. 685 00:35:28,727 --> 00:35:31,895 LIKE, I DON'T GET IT. 686 00:35:31,897 --> 00:35:35,532 WHAT IN THE WORLD COULD THEY EVEN BE THINKING? 687 00:35:35,534 --> 00:35:36,566 OKAY, HON? Angela: HUH? 688 00:35:36,568 --> 00:35:38,335 I GOT THE KEYS TO THE OTHER ROOM. 689 00:35:38,337 --> 00:35:41,505 IT'S A KING-SIZE WITH A BED, A MATTRESS. 690 00:35:41,507 --> 00:35:44,107 OKAY, WOULD YOU GRAB THAT CHAIR? 691 00:35:44,109 --> 00:35:46,209 I'M GONNA HAVE TO USE IT AS, LIKE, A WALKER. 692 00:35:46,211 --> 00:35:47,377 YOU'RE GONNA WALK? 693 00:35:47,379 --> 00:35:48,678 I'M GONNA TRY TO WALK. 694 00:35:48,680 --> 00:35:52,015 THAT WILL WORK. 695 00:35:52,017 --> 00:35:54,217 ERIC WENT DOWN THE HALL AND GOT A NEW ROOM, 696 00:35:54,219 --> 00:35:56,486 BUT IT'S DOWN THE HALL SOME. 697 00:35:56,488 --> 00:35:58,655 I'M REALLY WORRIED ABOUT WALKING. 698 00:36:01,727 --> 00:36:03,460 GO AT A SLOWER PACE. 699 00:36:07,633 --> 00:36:10,133 I'M REALLY HUNGRY. 700 00:36:10,135 --> 00:36:12,736 I JUST WANT TO EAT AND LAY DOWN. 701 00:36:17,409 --> 00:36:21,645 YOU NEED A BREAK? NO. JUST LET'S GO. 702 00:36:21,647 --> 00:36:23,580 WE'RE ALMOST THERE, HON. 703 00:36:25,217 --> 00:36:26,449 [ SIGHS ] 704 00:36:26,451 --> 00:36:29,419 [ BREATHING HEAVILY ] 705 00:36:29,421 --> 00:36:39,196 ♪ 706 00:36:39,198 --> 00:36:42,866 I MEAN, IF I AM BEING A BITCH, JUST TELL ME. 707 00:36:42,868 --> 00:36:46,269 NOW, ERIC, JUST CALL ME A BITCH. 708 00:36:46,271 --> 00:36:48,038 NO. 709 00:36:48,040 --> 00:36:50,874 OH! 710 00:36:50,876 --> 00:36:53,810 [ WHIMPERS ] RELAX, HONEY. 711 00:36:53,812 --> 00:36:57,747 YOU'RE FINE. [ SIGHING ] 712 00:36:57,749 --> 00:36:59,883 I'M SORRY. I AM NOT SNAPPING AT YOU. 713 00:36:59,885 --> 00:37:01,484 I PROMISE. YOU'RE NOT BEING SNIPPY. 714 00:37:04,856 --> 00:37:07,657 DON'T BE SETTING IT ALL ROMANTIC. 715 00:37:07,659 --> 00:37:10,160 HMM. [ LAUGHS ] 716 00:37:10,162 --> 00:37:12,662 I WANT TO SHOW DR. NOW MY MASS. 717 00:37:12,664 --> 00:37:15,732 BECAUSE OF THIS MASS IS WHY I CAN'T MOVE. 718 00:37:15,734 --> 00:37:18,868 AND I'M ACTUALLY SCARED FOR SOME REASON 719 00:37:18,870 --> 00:37:20,670 HE WOULDN'T BE ABLE TO HELP ME. 720 00:37:20,672 --> 00:37:24,074 AND HE'S GONNA SAY, "EITHER LOSE WEIGHT OR DIE." 721 00:37:24,076 --> 00:37:26,576 [ BREATHING HEAVILY ] 722 00:37:30,949 --> 00:37:32,882 OKAY, THE VAN'S MOVED AROUND. 723 00:37:35,220 --> 00:37:38,121 I JUST GOT TO LOAD IT UP AND GET YOU IN IT, 724 00:37:38,123 --> 00:37:40,624 AND WE'LL BE READY TO TAKE OFF. 725 00:37:43,161 --> 00:37:44,727 IT'S ABOUT 8:30, 726 00:37:44,729 --> 00:37:48,498 AND WE'RE STARTING OUT TO GO SEE DR. NOW. 727 00:37:48,500 --> 00:37:53,370 AND ERIC'S VERY EXCITED, AND I'M JUST HERE 728 00:37:53,372 --> 00:37:55,372 AND I JUST WANT TO GO. 729 00:37:55,374 --> 00:37:57,407 [ BOTH BREATHING HEAVILY ] 730 00:38:01,013 --> 00:38:02,879 I'M HOPING THIS WILL BE EASIER FOR YOU. 731 00:38:02,881 --> 00:38:05,582 [ SIGHS ] 732 00:38:05,584 --> 00:38:09,219 I DON'T FEEL GOOD AT ALL. I FEEL REALLY TIRED. 733 00:38:09,221 --> 00:38:11,988 EVERY PART OF MY BODY JUST HURTS SO BAD. 734 00:38:11,990 --> 00:38:14,591 SO I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO TODAY'S CAR RIDE. 735 00:38:14,593 --> 00:38:15,859 ALL RIGHT, YOU JUST -- 736 00:38:15,861 --> 00:38:18,061 I'M GETTING STUFF OUT OF YOUR WAY. 737 00:38:18,063 --> 00:38:20,697 [ GRUNTS ] 738 00:38:20,699 --> 00:38:24,234 OH, I'M SO... 739 00:38:24,236 --> 00:38:26,870 GOD, I DON'T KNOW WHAT'S GOING ON. 740 00:38:26,872 --> 00:38:30,640 I FEEL LIKE I'M 100 POUNDS BIGGER THAN I WAS YESTERDAY. 741 00:38:30,642 --> 00:38:32,042 Eric: JUST TAKE YOUR TIME. 742 00:38:32,044 --> 00:38:34,110 YOU WORRY ABOUT YOU. 743 00:38:34,112 --> 00:38:37,847 [ BREATHING HEAVILY ] 744 00:38:37,849 --> 00:38:39,215 YOU READY? 745 00:38:39,217 --> 00:38:40,917 I'M READY. 746 00:38:40,919 --> 00:38:47,390 ♪ 747 00:38:47,392 --> 00:38:49,159 I'M REALLY HUNGRY. 748 00:38:49,161 --> 00:38:52,028 LET'S STOP FOR A BURGER BEFORE YOU HIT THE HIGHWAY. 749 00:38:52,030 --> 00:38:53,830 WE CAN DO THAT. 750 00:38:53,832 --> 00:38:57,133 SO, BASICALLY, RIGHT HERE, YOU'RE TURNING RIGHT. 751 00:39:01,006 --> 00:39:03,106 Woman: GOOD MORNING. GIVE US A MOMENT. 752 00:39:03,108 --> 00:39:04,674 NUMBER 2 WITH CHEESE? NUMBER 2. 753 00:39:04,676 --> 00:39:06,343 I NEED A NUMBER 2 WITH CHEESE. 754 00:39:06,345 --> 00:39:08,611 NO ONION. AND NO ONION. 755 00:39:08,613 --> 00:39:09,979 ALL RIGHT. ANYTHING ELSE? 756 00:39:09,981 --> 00:39:11,414 NO, THAT WILL BE ALL. 757 00:39:11,416 --> 00:39:13,483 $21.37 AT YOUR SECOND WINDOW. 758 00:39:13,485 --> 00:39:15,518 THANK YOU. 759 00:39:15,520 --> 00:39:17,120 Angela: I'M SEEING DR. NOW FOR THE FIRST TIME, 760 00:39:17,122 --> 00:39:19,622 IN A COUPLE HOURS. 761 00:39:19,624 --> 00:39:22,092 SO I FEEL VERY NERVOUS. 762 00:39:22,094 --> 00:39:24,728 AND THE THOUGHT OF STARTING TO DIET -- 763 00:39:24,730 --> 00:39:26,062 OF COURSE, IN THE BACK OF MY MIND, 764 00:39:26,064 --> 00:39:27,497 I'M LIKE, "I AIN'T GONNA BE EATING GOOD AGAIN." 765 00:39:27,499 --> 00:39:29,366 I'M GONNA PULL UP HERE AND STOP. 766 00:39:29,368 --> 00:39:31,201 OKAY. 767 00:39:31,203 --> 00:39:33,470 HERE. BE CAREFUL. IT'S HOT. 768 00:39:33,472 --> 00:39:39,442 WOW. THAT'S A HUGE BURGER. 769 00:39:39,444 --> 00:39:40,977 [ CHUCKLES ] 770 00:39:40,979 --> 00:39:43,580 THAT'S LIKE A 5-POUND BURGER. 771 00:39:43,582 --> 00:39:46,549 OH, MY GOSH. 772 00:39:46,551 --> 00:39:51,287 SO, I'M ALLOWING MYSELF THIS CHEAT MEAL ONE LAST TIME. 773 00:39:51,289 --> 00:39:53,690 THAT IS REALLY GOOD. THIS IS A GOOD BURGER. 774 00:39:55,560 --> 00:39:57,594 YOU READY? YEP. 775 00:39:59,898 --> 00:40:01,664 YOU ALL RIGHT? 776 00:40:01,666 --> 00:40:03,700 I DON'T LIKE SEEING YOU GET UPSET. 777 00:40:07,406 --> 00:40:09,672 YOU KNOW, YOU ARE A LOT OLDER THAN WHEN WE DATED, 778 00:40:09,674 --> 00:40:12,075 SO YOU REALLY ARE, LIKE, RISK OF HEART ATTACK NOW, 779 00:40:12,077 --> 00:40:15,178 SO YOU'VE GOT TO TAKE IT EASY, BUDDY. 780 00:40:18,417 --> 00:40:24,354 WE ARE ALMOST IN HOUSTON, TEXAS, SO I AM GETTING REALLY NERVOUS, 781 00:40:24,356 --> 00:40:27,023 AND IT'S MAKING ME JUST WANT TO EAT. 782 00:40:27,025 --> 00:40:29,426 AND EVEN THOUGH IT WAS A LITTLE ROUGH MORNING, 783 00:40:29,428 --> 00:40:30,660 I KEEP GOING BACK AND FORTH. 784 00:40:30,662 --> 00:40:32,028 I'M VERY MOODY. 785 00:40:32,030 --> 00:40:36,566 I'M GOING FROM SAD TO PISSED OFF TO REALLY HAPPY. 786 00:40:36,568 --> 00:40:39,169 BUT, RIGHT NOW, I'M FEELING EXCITED A LITTLE BIT. 787 00:40:39,171 --> 00:40:41,171 I HAVEN'T FELT THAT ALL DAY. 788 00:40:41,173 --> 00:40:43,473 I'M REALLY SCARED TO DEATH. 789 00:40:43,475 --> 00:40:46,776 LIKE, WHEN I GET TO DR. NOW'S, 790 00:40:46,778 --> 00:40:50,413 IF IT DOES NOT GO WELL, I'M NOT READY TO GIVE UP. 791 00:40:50,415 --> 00:40:51,881 I'M NOT. 792 00:40:51,883 --> 00:40:55,418 I JUST DON'T WANT TO BE HURTING AND CRYING EVERY DAY. 793 00:40:55,420 --> 00:40:57,787 I DON'T WANT TO KEEP LIVING THE WAY I'M LIVING. 794 00:40:57,789 --> 00:41:05,428 ♪ 795 00:41:05,430 --> 00:41:07,230 I AM SO NUMB. 796 00:41:07,232 --> 00:41:09,299 MY HEART'S, LIKE, STARTING TO POUND, 797 00:41:09,301 --> 00:41:12,669 SO, LIKE, I'M TOTALLY NERVOUS NOW. 798 00:41:12,671 --> 00:41:16,072 AND LOOK, THERE'S HIS OFFICE. 799 00:41:16,074 --> 00:41:20,376 OH, MY GOD. 800 00:41:20,378 --> 00:41:22,045 [ SIGHS ] I GOT TO TAKE A DEEP BREATH. 801 00:41:22,047 --> 00:41:23,613 [ SEAT BELT UNLATCHES ] 802 00:41:23,615 --> 00:41:26,950 I'M AT DR. NOW'S OFFICE. 803 00:41:26,952 --> 00:41:29,419 IT TOOK THREE DAYS TO GET HERE, 804 00:41:29,421 --> 00:41:32,555 AND I'M READY TO SEE DR. NOW TODAY. 805 00:41:32,557 --> 00:41:36,559 ALL RIGHT. HERE'S THE TEST. 806 00:41:39,564 --> 00:41:43,867 I FEEL VERY NERVOUS ABOUT MEETING DR. NOW. 807 00:41:43,869 --> 00:41:46,769 GO AT YOUR PACE. I KNOW. 808 00:41:46,771 --> 00:41:49,172 MY BIGGEST FEAR, I THINK, 809 00:41:49,174 --> 00:41:52,208 WOULD BE DR. NOW JUST SAYING THAT FOR SOME REASON, 810 00:41:52,210 --> 00:41:54,043 HE WOULDN'T BE ABLE TO HELP ME. 811 00:41:54,045 --> 00:41:57,514 ANGELA? 812 00:41:57,516 --> 00:42:02,185 SINCE I WENT TO THE DOCTOR A FEW MONTHS AGO, WEIGHING 550, 813 00:42:02,187 --> 00:42:05,688 I HOPE THE SCALE DON'T SAY NO MORE. 814 00:42:05,690 --> 00:42:07,624 I DON'T THINK IT WILL SAY ANY LESS EITHER. 815 00:42:07,626 --> 00:42:10,527 YEAH, YOU GOT THAT. I NEED YOU. 816 00:42:10,529 --> 00:42:13,930 SO, I'M A NERVOUS WRECK. I FEEL VERY NERVOUS. 817 00:42:24,309 --> 00:42:31,614 ♪ 818 00:42:31,616 --> 00:42:35,051 Angela: TODAY I AM AT DR. NOW'S OFFICE TO GET HIS HELP. 819 00:42:35,053 --> 00:42:37,353 AND I'M ABOUT TO FIND OUT WHAT I WEIGH. 820 00:42:37,355 --> 00:42:40,323 I JUST HOPE IT'S NOT A HUGE NUMBER. 821 00:42:42,594 --> 00:42:44,327 [ SIGHS ] 822 00:42:46,865 --> 00:42:50,466 I'M SHOCKED. I AM VERY SURPRISED. 823 00:42:50,468 --> 00:42:54,203 NO HUMAN BEING SHOULD WEIGH 600 POUNDS. 824 00:42:54,205 --> 00:42:56,973 AND I'M OVER IT. 825 00:42:56,975 --> 00:42:59,742 IT ABSOLUTELY SCARES ME TO DEATH 826 00:42:59,744 --> 00:43:01,811 BECAUSE THAT'S NOT NORMAL. 827 00:43:01,813 --> 00:43:06,215 YOUR HEART IS NOT SUPPOSED TO TAKE WEIGHT LIKE THAT. 828 00:43:06,217 --> 00:43:07,750 SO I THINK HE'S GONNA TELL ME, 829 00:43:07,752 --> 00:43:09,986 "EITHER YOU'RE GONNA LOSE IT OR YOU'RE GONNA DIE SOON," 830 00:43:09,988 --> 00:43:14,490 BECAUSE NOBODY CAN LIVE THIS MUCH LONGER AT THAT WEIGHT. 831 00:43:14,492 --> 00:43:17,560 SO I'M A NERVOUS WRECK. [ KNOCK ON DOOR ] 832 00:43:17,562 --> 00:43:19,495 Dr. Nowzaradan: HELLO. HI. 833 00:43:19,497 --> 00:43:21,064 HOW ARE Y'ALL DOING? GOOD. 834 00:43:21,066 --> 00:43:23,199 HOW ARE YOU? I'M DOING ALL RIGHT. 835 00:43:23,201 --> 00:43:24,300 I'M DR. NOWZARADAN. 836 00:43:24,302 --> 00:43:26,135 I'M ANGELA. NICE TO MEET YOU. 837 00:43:26,137 --> 00:43:27,203 I'M ERIC. YOU TOO, SIR. 838 00:43:27,205 --> 00:43:29,105 NICE TO MEET YOU. VERY NICE TO MEET YOU. 839 00:43:29,107 --> 00:43:32,108 SO, WHO'S ERIC? HE'S A GOOD FRIEND. 840 00:43:32,110 --> 00:43:35,078 AN OLD, GOOD FRIEND, HUH? YES, DR. NOW. 841 00:43:35,080 --> 00:43:36,312 ALL RIGHT. AN OLD, GOOD FRIEND. 842 00:43:36,314 --> 00:43:37,680 SO, HE CAME OVER THERE AND GOT YOU? 843 00:43:37,682 --> 00:43:38,848 YES. 844 00:43:38,850 --> 00:43:41,084 THERE, YOU'VE GOT A REAL GOOD FRIEND. 845 00:43:41,086 --> 00:43:42,986 [ LAUGHTER ] 846 00:43:42,988 --> 00:43:46,222 ALL RIGHT, WELL, I'M GLAD YOU'RE HERE AND YOU MADE IT SAFE. 847 00:43:46,224 --> 00:43:48,291 SO, YOU'RE HERE TO GET HELP WITH YOUR WEIGHT. 848 00:43:48,293 --> 00:43:51,327 AND TODAY YOU ARE 608. YES. 849 00:43:51,329 --> 00:43:55,064 AND IT SAYS HERE YOU ALREADY HAD WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY IN 2002? 850 00:43:55,066 --> 00:43:56,165 YES, SIR. 851 00:43:56,167 --> 00:43:58,334 AND AT THAT TIME, HOW MUCH YOU WEIGH? 852 00:43:58,336 --> 00:44:01,571 IT WAS UP TO 375, AND I LOST 100 POUNDS. 853 00:44:01,573 --> 00:44:04,707 YOU WEIGHED 375? YES. 854 00:44:04,709 --> 00:44:07,243 WELL, YOU OBVIOUSLY STARTED TO GAIN AGAIN, 855 00:44:07,245 --> 00:44:10,747 BUT THIS TIME, YOU PASSED 375, YOU DON'T STOP THERE. 856 00:44:10,749 --> 00:44:13,416 YOU GO ALL THE WAY TO OVER 600 POUNDS. 857 00:44:13,418 --> 00:44:15,518 UNFORTUNATELY. SO, HOW DID THAT HAPPEN? 858 00:44:15,520 --> 00:44:18,054 TELL ME WHAT'S GOING ON WITH YOUR EATING HABITS. 859 00:44:18,056 --> 00:44:20,690 JUST EATING. JUST I EAT. 860 00:44:20,692 --> 00:44:24,961 AND, BASICALLY, I THINK, FEELING SORRY FOR MYSELF 861 00:44:24,963 --> 00:44:26,863 BECAUSE I CAN'T MOVE AROUND. 862 00:44:26,865 --> 00:44:30,166 I USE THE LYMPHEDEMA AS AN EXCUSE -- ON MY LEG. 863 00:44:30,168 --> 00:44:33,903 SO, WHEN I STARTED NOT MOVING AROUND, I JUST EAT. 864 00:44:33,905 --> 00:44:36,973 AND I EAT THE WRONG STUFF AND I EAT A LOT OF IT. 865 00:44:36,975 --> 00:44:39,242 SO, YOU JUST LIKE EATING A LOT, 866 00:44:39,244 --> 00:44:41,878 FEEL SORRY FOR YOURSELF, AND CAN'T MOVE. 867 00:44:41,880 --> 00:44:44,981 THREE DIFFERENT EXCUSES THAT ALL HAVE NOTHING TO DO 868 00:44:44,983 --> 00:44:47,183 WITH WHY YOU'RE OVER 600 POUNDS, 869 00:44:47,185 --> 00:44:49,752 ESPECIALLY SINCE LYMPHEDEMA DOESN'T DEVELOP 870 00:44:49,754 --> 00:44:52,622 UNTIL YOU ALREADY GAINED A SIGNIFICANT AMOUNT OF WEIGHT. 871 00:44:52,624 --> 00:44:55,491 SO NONE OF THAT MAKE ANY SENSE. 872 00:44:55,493 --> 00:44:59,862 AND FOR YOUR HEIGHT, 608 IS A VERY DANGEROUS WEIGHT. 873 00:44:59,864 --> 00:45:02,098 AND YOU ALREADY HAD THE WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY, 874 00:45:02,100 --> 00:45:03,700 AND NOTHING HAS WORKED 875 00:45:03,702 --> 00:45:05,868 AND YOU HAVEN'T CHANGED YOUR EATING HABITS. 876 00:45:05,870 --> 00:45:08,237 SO WE HAVE A REALLY BAD SITUATION WITH YOU, 877 00:45:08,239 --> 00:45:10,339 BECAUSE THE REAL ANSWER TO MY QUESTION -- 878 00:45:10,341 --> 00:45:11,974 WHY YOU'RE OVER 600 -- 879 00:45:11,976 --> 00:45:14,811 IS THAT YOU'VE BEEN HOPING FOR SOME SORT OF MAGIC SOLUTION. 880 00:45:14,813 --> 00:45:17,113 WHY DO YOU KEEP DOING WHATEVER YOU WANT? 881 00:45:17,115 --> 00:45:19,982 AND HAVING FAILED WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY ONCE ALREADY 882 00:45:19,984 --> 00:45:23,219 IS A SIGN THAT YOU'RE LIKELY GOING TO CONTINUE THAT BEHAVIOR. 883 00:45:23,221 --> 00:45:26,322 SO TELL ME WHAT'S GOING TO BE DIFFERENT THIS TIME. 884 00:45:26,324 --> 00:45:28,624 WHEN I GOT THAT SURGERY, I HAD, LIKE, 885 00:45:28,626 --> 00:45:32,495 SO MANY LIFE CHANGES HAPPEN -- MY HUSBAND LEAVE ME. 886 00:45:32,497 --> 00:45:34,764 I LOST ALL THAT WEIGHT, AND ALL OF A SUDDEN, 887 00:45:34,766 --> 00:45:37,100 PEOPLE PAYING ATTENTION TO ME. 888 00:45:37,102 --> 00:45:39,102 I WAS RUNNING A BUSINESS. 889 00:45:39,104 --> 00:45:41,904 IN ONE YEAR, I WAS BOMBARDED. 890 00:45:41,906 --> 00:45:45,074 AND, BASICALLY, I DIDN'T HAVE NO CONTROL. 891 00:45:45,076 --> 00:45:46,609 THIS IS JUST MORE EXCUSES, 892 00:45:46,611 --> 00:45:49,345 BECAUSE YOU'RE SAYING YOU WENT BACK TO OVEREATING 893 00:45:49,347 --> 00:45:51,948 BECAUSE LIFE GOT HARD AND STRESSFUL. 894 00:45:51,950 --> 00:45:54,717 THAT'S NEVER GONNA CHANGE. THAT'S PART OF LIFE. 895 00:45:54,719 --> 00:45:56,886 SO, I STILL HAVE THE SAME QUESTION. 896 00:45:56,888 --> 00:45:58,654 WHAT'S GONNA BE ANY DIFFERENT THIS TIME 897 00:45:58,656 --> 00:46:01,991 IF YOU HAVE WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY? 898 00:46:01,993 --> 00:46:04,327 [ Voice breaking ] I'M JUST DONE. 899 00:46:04,329 --> 00:46:07,497 SO, LIKE, I REALLY WANT TO LOSE IT NOW, 900 00:46:07,499 --> 00:46:09,732 BECAUSE I'M GONNA BE DEAD NEXT YEAR. 901 00:46:09,734 --> 00:46:12,335 I KNOW I AM. I JUST KNOW IT. 902 00:46:12,337 --> 00:46:15,304 I CANNOT LIVE LIKE THIS NO MORE. 903 00:46:15,306 --> 00:46:18,374 AND I HAVE A GRANDDAUGHTER THAT'S 3. 904 00:46:18,376 --> 00:46:20,743 AND SHE HAS GOT TO HAVE ME. 905 00:46:20,745 --> 00:46:23,713 SO I HAVE TO BE AROUND. THERE'S NO CHOICE. 906 00:46:23,715 --> 00:46:26,149 I'M NOT DOUBTING YOUR DESIRE TO LOSE WEIGHT. 907 00:46:26,151 --> 00:46:27,550 WHAT I'M CONCERNED ABOUT IS 908 00:46:27,552 --> 00:46:29,285 WHETHER YOU'RE GONNA BE WILLING TO DO 909 00:46:29,287 --> 00:46:31,220 WHAT YOU NEED TO MAKE THAT CHANGE, 910 00:46:31,222 --> 00:46:34,190 INSTEAD OF CONTINUING TO MAKE EXCUSES. 911 00:46:34,192 --> 00:46:35,424 AND EVERYTHING YOU'RE SAYING, 912 00:46:35,426 --> 00:46:37,994 I HAVE HEARD IT BEFORE FROM PATIENTS WHO TELL ME 913 00:46:37,996 --> 00:46:41,397 THE SAME THING WHILE CRYING, BUT THEY STILL REFUSE 914 00:46:41,399 --> 00:46:43,633 TO TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR THEIR CHOICES. 915 00:46:43,635 --> 00:46:46,903 BUT YOU SAY YOU'RE READY. THEN WHAT IS YOUR MOTIVATION? 916 00:46:46,905 --> 00:46:50,339 AND WHAT ARE YOUR GOALS WITH WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY THIS TIME? 917 00:46:50,341 --> 00:46:53,810 I WANT TO BE HEALTHY, AND I WANT TO BE ABLE TO WALK. 918 00:46:53,812 --> 00:46:55,111 TO BE HONEST, EVERYBODY KEEPS SAYING, 919 00:46:55,113 --> 00:46:57,480 "WHAT DO YOU WANT TO LOSE?" THERE'S NOT A NUMBER. 920 00:46:57,482 --> 00:46:59,782 I WANT TO BE ABLE TO PICK UP MY BABY GRANDDAUGHTER, 921 00:46:59,784 --> 00:47:02,385 GO TO THE ZOO, WALK THE ENTIRE ZOO, 922 00:47:02,387 --> 00:47:04,120 NOT SIT ONCE. 923 00:47:04,122 --> 00:47:05,621 I WANT TO BE ABLE TO BREATHE. 924 00:47:05,623 --> 00:47:08,691 I WANT THIS OUT OF MY FACE. 925 00:47:08,693 --> 00:47:10,092 AND I JUST WANT LIFE BACK. 926 00:47:10,094 --> 00:47:13,196 I AM, LIKE -- I'M 44 AND I CAN'T BELIEVE 927 00:47:13,198 --> 00:47:15,932 I'VE TAKEN ADVANTAGE OF EVERYTHING. 928 00:47:15,934 --> 00:47:18,601 AND I DON'T THINK IT'S TOO LATE FOR ME. 929 00:47:18,603 --> 00:47:21,704 IT'S NEVER TOO LATE TO TRY TO SAVE YOUR LIFE. 930 00:47:21,706 --> 00:47:23,940 BUT DO YOU WANT ALL THAT ENOUGH THIS TIME 931 00:47:23,942 --> 00:47:26,342 TO ACTUALLY DO WHAT YOU NEED THIS TIME? 932 00:47:26,344 --> 00:47:27,577 YES. 933 00:47:27,579 --> 00:47:29,145 OKAY, THEN HERE'S WHAT WE'RE GONNA DO. 934 00:47:29,147 --> 00:47:32,148 I'M GONNA START YOU ON A 1,200-CALORIE-A-DAY DIET, 935 00:47:32,150 --> 00:47:33,783 AND YOU'RE GOING TO CHANGE YOUR EATING HABIT. 936 00:47:33,785 --> 00:47:34,817 YES. 937 00:47:34,819 --> 00:47:36,552 YOU ONLY EAT IT THREE TIMES A DAY. 938 00:47:36,554 --> 00:47:39,622 YOU ONLY EAT HIGH PROTEIN, NO CARBS. 939 00:47:39,624 --> 00:47:41,924 AND YOU STICK TO IT COMPLETELY. YOU GOT IT? 940 00:47:41,926 --> 00:47:43,059 YES, SIR. 941 00:47:43,061 --> 00:47:45,261 AND I ALSO WANT YOU TO START EXERCISING 942 00:47:45,263 --> 00:47:46,829 AT LEAST ONE HOUR A DAY. 943 00:47:46,831 --> 00:47:49,432 30 MINUTES IN THE MORNING AND 30 MINUTES AT NIGHT. 944 00:47:49,434 --> 00:47:53,002 AND NO USING YOUR LYMPHEDEMA AS AN EXCUSE, OKAY? 945 00:47:53,004 --> 00:47:54,403 OKAY. AND I'M GOING TO GIVE YOU 946 00:47:54,405 --> 00:47:56,672 A VERY EASY WEIGHT-LOSS GOAL TO HIT. 947 00:47:56,674 --> 00:47:59,375 IN TWO MONTHS, I WANT YOU TO LOSE 40 POUNDS. 948 00:47:59,377 --> 00:48:00,643 IF YOU STICK TO THE DIET, 949 00:48:00,645 --> 00:48:02,979 YOU'LL EASILY LOSE THREE TIMES THAT. 950 00:48:02,981 --> 00:48:06,148 SO THIS IS A VERY EASY GOAL I'M GIVING YOU, 951 00:48:06,150 --> 00:48:07,683 AND IT SHOULD BE NO PROBLEM 952 00:48:07,685 --> 00:48:09,852 IF YOU'RE AS READY TO DO THIS AS YOU CLAIM. 953 00:48:09,854 --> 00:48:12,588 JUST SHOW ME YOU'RE WILLING TO TRY EVEN JUST A LITTLE BIT. 954 00:48:12,590 --> 00:48:13,789 YES, SIR. 955 00:48:13,791 --> 00:48:15,825 BUT IF YOU DO THAT BY YOUR NEXT APPOINTMENT, 956 00:48:15,827 --> 00:48:18,294 THEN I'M GOING TO NEED YOU TO MOVE DOWN TO HOUSTON 957 00:48:18,296 --> 00:48:21,197 TO DO THE PROGRAM. YOU THINK YOU CAN DO THAT? 958 00:48:21,199 --> 00:48:25,434 AS SOON AS I KNOW I CAN BE IN THE PROGRAM, I'M READY. 959 00:48:25,436 --> 00:48:27,370 I HAVE NO PROBLEM MOVING HERE. 960 00:48:27,372 --> 00:48:28,771 THE LITTLE GIRL THAT LIVES WITH ME -- 961 00:48:28,773 --> 00:48:31,073 I'VE ALREADY GOT ARRANGEMENTS. 962 00:48:31,075 --> 00:48:32,975 EVERYTHING'S SET UP. 963 00:48:32,977 --> 00:48:35,378 SO I'M READY TO -- WHEN YOU SAY, 964 00:48:35,380 --> 00:48:38,648 "ANGELA, YOU NEED TO LIVE HERE BY THIS DAY OR THIS MONTH," 965 00:48:38,650 --> 00:48:39,882 I'M READY. 966 00:48:39,884 --> 00:48:42,385 OKAY, GOOD, BECAUSE WHAT WE'RE GONNA DO IS 967 00:48:42,387 --> 00:48:44,220 WE'RE GONNA START YOU IN PSYCHOTHERAPY 968 00:48:44,222 --> 00:48:46,155 BEFORE WE DO ANYTHING ELSE. 969 00:48:46,157 --> 00:48:48,357 AND DEPENDING ON HOW YOU DO WITH THAT 970 00:48:48,359 --> 00:48:51,260 WILL DETERMINE IF YOU MOVE AHEAD WITH WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY. 971 00:48:51,262 --> 00:48:52,995 YOU GOT IT? YES, SIR. 972 00:48:52,997 --> 00:48:54,797 WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY FAILED ONCE 973 00:48:54,799 --> 00:48:57,667 BECAUSE YOU KEPT JUSTIFYING AND MAKING EXCUSES. 974 00:48:57,669 --> 00:48:59,969 SO I WANT TO SEE THAT YOU'RE WILLING TO WORK. 975 00:48:59,971 --> 00:49:01,437 AND THEN YOU NEED TO SHOW ME 976 00:49:01,439 --> 00:49:04,206 YOU'RE ALSO WILLING TO WORK ON THOSE ISSUES, TOO, 977 00:49:04,208 --> 00:49:07,276 BEFORE I'M WILLING TO CONSIDER WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY FOR YOU. 978 00:49:07,278 --> 00:49:08,644 OKAY. ALL RIGHT. 979 00:49:08,646 --> 00:49:11,347 ANY QUESTIONS? NO QUESTIONS, SIR. 980 00:49:11,349 --> 00:49:13,182 ALL RIGHT, SO, TAKE THIS SERIOUSLY, 981 00:49:13,184 --> 00:49:15,985 BECAUSE AT YOUR AGE, YOU CAN'T KEEP GOING LIKE THIS. 982 00:49:15,987 --> 00:49:18,254 EVERYTHING WILL BE UP TO YOU. 983 00:49:18,256 --> 00:49:21,290 IF YOU DON'T CHANGE YOUR DIET, YOU GO BACK TO THAT, 984 00:49:21,292 --> 00:49:23,392 THEN THERE IS NOTHING ANYBODY CAN DO TO HELP. 985 00:49:23,394 --> 00:49:24,593 I UNDERSTAND. 986 00:49:24,595 --> 00:49:25,861 YOU GOT IT? I DO. 987 00:49:25,863 --> 00:49:27,530 ALL RIGHT. SUPER. 988 00:49:27,532 --> 00:49:30,199 THANK YOU SO MUCH. YOU'RE WELCOME. 989 00:49:30,201 --> 00:49:32,268 OKAY, ANGELA, I'LL SEE YOU IN TWO MONTHS. 990 00:49:32,270 --> 00:49:33,803 NICE TO MEET YOU. NICE MEETING YOU. 991 00:49:33,805 --> 00:49:36,038 VERY NICE MEETING YOU. NICE TO MEET YOU. 992 00:49:39,777 --> 00:49:42,311 Dr. Nowzaradan: RIGHT NOW, I'M VERY CONCERNED 993 00:49:42,313 --> 00:49:45,247 ABOUT WHETHER ANGELA IS TRULY READY TO WORK 994 00:49:45,249 --> 00:49:48,718 AT MAKING THE CHANGES SHE NEEDS TO TURN HER LIFE AROUND. 995 00:49:48,720 --> 00:49:51,287 SHE SPENT HER APPOINTMENT GIVING ME THE EXCUSES 996 00:49:51,289 --> 00:49:53,322 FOR ALL THE REASONS SHE'S GAINED, 997 00:49:53,324 --> 00:49:56,525 INSTEAD OF TAKING ANY REAL RESPONSIBILITY. 998 00:49:56,527 --> 00:49:58,627 SO THAT, COMBINED WITH THE FACT 999 00:49:58,629 --> 00:50:00,796 SHE ALREADY FAILED WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY ONCE, 1000 00:50:00,798 --> 00:50:02,665 IS A VERY BAD SIGN. 1001 00:50:02,667 --> 00:50:04,800 SO WE MAY HAVE AN UPHILL BATTLE 1002 00:50:04,802 --> 00:50:07,536 GETTING HER TO A PLACE SHE NEEDS TO SAVE HER LIFE. 1003 00:50:07,538 --> 00:50:10,539 IT WILL BE EXTREMELY IMPORTANT THAT WE START HER 1004 00:50:10,541 --> 00:50:12,308 GOING TO PSYCHOTHERAPY 1005 00:50:12,310 --> 00:50:15,144 TILL THIS WHOLE ISSUE SHE HAS BEHIND HER OVEREATING, 1006 00:50:15,146 --> 00:50:17,480 BEFORE WE EVEN CONSIDER DOING ANYTHING 1007 00:50:17,482 --> 00:50:20,016 LIKE ANOTHER WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY ON HER. 1008 00:50:20,018 --> 00:50:23,419 BUT, FIRST, ANGELA NEEDS TO GIVE ME A LITTLE EVIDENCE 1009 00:50:23,421 --> 00:50:25,421 SHE'S ACTUALLY WILLING TO WORK ON THIS, 1010 00:50:25,423 --> 00:50:27,689 ON EVEN THE SMALLEST LEVEL. 1011 00:50:27,691 --> 00:50:30,493 BUT IF SHE CAN'T EVEN DO THAT, THEN IT WILL SHOW US 1012 00:50:30,495 --> 00:50:33,229 SHE'S GOING TO JUST CONTINUE MAKING EXCUSES 1013 00:50:33,231 --> 00:50:36,232 AND UNDO HER SURGERY AND START GAINING AGAIN, 1014 00:50:36,234 --> 00:50:38,234 JUST LIKE SHE DID THE FIRST TIME. 1015 00:50:38,236 --> 00:50:41,103 BUT I'M HOPING SHE IS AS SERIOUS AS SHE SAYS 1016 00:50:41,105 --> 00:50:46,442 AND SHOWS ME THAT BY MAKING THE PROGRESS SHE NEEDS. 1017 00:50:46,444 --> 00:50:48,844 I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO THINK ABOUT THAT. 1018 00:50:48,846 --> 00:50:51,347 EVERYTHING HE SAID IS WHAT I NEEDED TO HEAR, 1019 00:50:51,349 --> 00:50:55,217 PLUS A LITTLE MORE, AND I WAS REALLY GRATEFUL. 1020 00:50:55,219 --> 00:50:58,187 HAVING HIM HOLD ME ACCOUNTABLE FOR THINGS, 1021 00:50:58,189 --> 00:51:00,823 I THINK IT WILL HELP. 1022 00:51:00,825 --> 00:51:04,260 BUT I'M A LITTLE WORRIED, BECAUSE I DON'T FEEL LIKE MOVING 1023 00:51:04,262 --> 00:51:08,531 THAT FAR, LEAVING MY FAMILY. 1024 00:51:08,533 --> 00:51:10,699 BUT THIS IS MY LAST CHANCE. 1025 00:51:10,701 --> 00:51:12,968 IF I DIE TOMORROW, I DIE TRYING, 1026 00:51:12,970 --> 00:51:15,337 BECAUSE I WILL DO WHAT DR. NOW SAYS. 1027 00:51:15,339 --> 00:51:18,441 AND I WILL GO HOME, I WILL LOSE THE WEIGHT, 1028 00:51:18,443 --> 00:51:21,777 I'LL LOOK FOR A PLACE TO LIVE, COME BACK, MOVE HERE, 1029 00:51:21,779 --> 00:51:23,979 AND GET MY LIFE BACK TOGETHER. 1030 00:51:34,792 --> 00:51:40,396 ♪ 1031 00:51:40,398 --> 00:51:45,601 ♪ 1032 00:51:45,603 --> 00:51:48,471 ONE... 1033 00:51:48,473 --> 00:51:50,739 TWO... 1034 00:51:50,741 --> 00:51:53,642 Angela: RIGHT NOW, I REALLY AM ENJOYING THE DIET. 1035 00:51:53,644 --> 00:51:55,077 ALL RIGHT. 1036 00:51:55,079 --> 00:51:58,347 I CAN'T REALLY GRIPE ABOUT IT. 1037 00:51:58,349 --> 00:52:01,550 YES OR NO TO FETA? NO. 1038 00:52:01,552 --> 00:52:03,152 HOW LONG IS IT GONNA LAST? 1039 00:52:03,154 --> 00:52:08,224 I HOPE TO GOD IT LASTS A LONG TIME. 1040 00:52:08,226 --> 00:52:09,892 AND YOU KNOW WHAT? 1041 00:52:09,894 --> 00:52:14,130 THE SALAD THING -- IT WAS TIRING DAY THREE, 1042 00:52:14,132 --> 00:52:15,998 BUT THEN I HAD NO IDEA -- 1043 00:52:16,000 --> 00:52:18,968 THERE'S ZERO-CALORIE BARBECUE SAUCE. 1044 00:52:18,970 --> 00:52:21,303 THERE IS A LOT OF STUFF OUT THERE 1045 00:52:21,305 --> 00:52:24,573 THAT I NEVER EVEN KNEW THAT YOU COULD HAVE, 1046 00:52:24,575 --> 00:52:27,009 AND IT'S ZERO CALORIES. 1047 00:52:27,011 --> 00:52:28,644 IS IT GOOD? MM-HMM. 1048 00:52:28,646 --> 00:52:31,714 I DO NOT, AT ALL, FEEL MYSELF BEING DRAWN 1049 00:52:31,716 --> 00:52:35,751 BACK TO THE BAD EATING HABITS AT ALL. 1050 00:52:35,753 --> 00:52:37,553 DIETING IS NOT FUN. 1051 00:52:37,555 --> 00:52:40,289 I'VE DIETED MY WHOLE LIFE, OFF AND ON, 1052 00:52:40,291 --> 00:52:44,193 BUT THIS TIME AROUND, IT KIND OF IS FUN. 1053 00:52:44,195 --> 00:52:45,828 YOU GET 2 WHOLE TABLESPOONS, 1054 00:52:45,830 --> 00:52:49,198 WHICH IS A LOT, ONLY 10 CALORIES. 1055 00:52:49,200 --> 00:52:52,535 SEE HOW MANY CALORIES IS IN YOUR RANCH. 1056 00:52:52,537 --> 00:52:55,504 HOW MANY? I FEEL FAT. 1057 00:52:55,506 --> 00:52:57,673 HOW MANY? 130. 1058 00:52:57,675 --> 00:52:59,642 OH, MY GOSH! [ LAUGHS ] 1059 00:52:59,644 --> 00:53:02,978 IT'S A CHALLENGE. 1060 00:53:02,980 --> 00:53:06,649 BUT THIS IS LIKE, "OKAY, ANGELA, EITHER YOU NEED TO DO THIS NOW 1061 00:53:06,651 --> 00:53:08,918 OR I'M GOING TO CALL A FUNERAL HOME 1062 00:53:08,920 --> 00:53:11,420 AND MAKE MY OWN ARRANGEMENTS." 1063 00:53:11,422 --> 00:53:16,058 SO, DR. NOW WANTS ME AT 199. 1064 00:53:16,060 --> 00:53:17,726 DO YOU THINK I'LL BE ABLE TO DO IT? 1065 00:53:17,728 --> 00:53:20,496 WANT ME TO BE HONEST? BE HONEST. 1066 00:53:20,498 --> 00:53:23,299 NO. NOW TELL ME WHY. 1067 00:53:23,301 --> 00:53:26,869 WHAT DO YOU THINK MY BIGGEST SETBACK WOULD BE? 1068 00:53:26,871 --> 00:53:30,206 CANDY. CANDY? 1069 00:53:30,208 --> 00:53:32,675 BUT, OTHERWISE, I THINK YOU WILL. 1070 00:53:32,677 --> 00:53:34,143 MM. 1071 00:53:34,145 --> 00:53:37,980 WE SHALL SEE. SURE. 1072 00:53:37,982 --> 00:53:40,482 I AM ON THIS WEIGHT-LOSS JOURNEY 1073 00:53:40,484 --> 00:53:44,286 FOR EMMA JEAN NEW, MY GRANDBABY. 1074 00:53:44,288 --> 00:53:46,021 ALSO FOR LACY. 1075 00:53:46,023 --> 00:53:49,358 LACY NEEDS SOMEBODY -- WHEN THERE'S A DANCE AT SCHOOL, 1076 00:53:49,360 --> 00:53:53,462 SHE NEEDS A FEMALE ROLE MODEL TO TAKE HER TO THE MALL 1077 00:53:53,464 --> 00:53:55,798 TO GO SHOPPING FOR THAT DRESS. 1078 00:53:55,800 --> 00:53:59,101 SHE NEEDS SOMEBODY MORE THAN JUST SOMEBODY 1079 00:53:59,103 --> 00:54:05,541 WHO KEEPS HER SAFE, WARM, AND FED AND CLOTHED. 1080 00:54:05,543 --> 00:54:09,011 HONESTLY, I WOULD NOT DO THIS FOR MYSELF. 1081 00:54:09,013 --> 00:54:13,182 IS IT WORTH GIVING UP MY FAMILY AND MY GRANDDAUGHTER 1082 00:54:13,184 --> 00:54:17,186 JUST TO HAVE A DOCTOR LOOK AT MY NUMBERS EVERY TWO WEEKS? 1083 00:54:17,188 --> 00:54:18,554 NO, IT'S NOT. 1084 00:54:18,556 --> 00:54:22,124 BUT IF HE SEES THEM NUMBERS AND SAYS, "YOU KNOW WHAT? 1085 00:54:22,126 --> 00:54:23,492 YOU'RE DOING YOUR THING, 1086 00:54:23,494 --> 00:54:27,062 AND WE CAN TAKE OFF SOME OF THE MASSES." 1087 00:54:27,064 --> 00:54:29,098 I HOPE THAT'S WHAT HAPPENS. 1088 00:54:29,100 --> 00:54:37,806 ♪ 1089 00:54:37,808 --> 00:54:46,782 ♪ 1090 00:54:46,784 --> 00:54:51,453 THINGS RECENTLY HAVE BEEN BASICALLY JUST A LOT OF STRESS. 1091 00:54:51,455 --> 00:54:53,622 THERE HAS BEEN A LOT OF FAMILY STUFF GOING ON, 1092 00:54:53,624 --> 00:54:57,293 BUT, DIETWISE, IT'S BEEN GOOD. 1093 00:54:57,295 --> 00:55:02,131 BUT AS FAR AS MY HEALTH, MY HEALTH HAS BEEN BETTER. 1094 00:55:02,133 --> 00:55:05,367 BEEN JUST LOOKING FOR PLACES IN HOUSTON. 1095 00:55:05,369 --> 00:55:08,837 I PERSONALLY -- I'M NOT EXCITED ABOUT THIS. 1096 00:55:08,839 --> 00:55:10,939 YOU KNOW, SO MANY STATES AWAY. 1097 00:55:10,941 --> 00:55:14,810 I FEEL LIKE I'VE LOST MOST MY MOTIVATION. 1098 00:55:14,812 --> 00:55:17,413 THREE MONTHS AGO, I WAS VERY EXCITED. 1099 00:55:17,415 --> 00:55:20,449 LIKE, I PROBABLY WOULD HAVE STAYED IN TEXAS. 1100 00:55:20,451 --> 00:55:24,720 WHEN I SEEN DR. NOW, I WOULD HAVE STAYED, PROBABLY. 1101 00:55:24,722 --> 00:55:27,122 NOW I AM THE OPPOSITE. 1102 00:55:27,124 --> 00:55:30,893 MAIN REASON IS FAMILY. NOBODY'S SUPPORTING ME. 1103 00:55:30,895 --> 00:55:35,164 NOBODY'S WANTING ME TO DO THIS, NOT EVEN MY DAUGHTER. 1104 00:55:35,166 --> 00:55:44,039 ♪ 1105 00:55:44,041 --> 00:55:45,908 NANA, YOU WANT TO KEEP CALLING. 1106 00:55:45,910 --> 00:55:49,845 HI, BABY. WHAT ARE YOU GUYS UP TO? 1107 00:55:49,847 --> 00:55:53,916 I JUST COOKED SOME PASTA SALAD. 1108 00:55:53,918 --> 00:55:56,385 THAT'S NICE AND NOT ON MY DIET. 1109 00:55:56,387 --> 00:55:58,554 YEAH. SORRY. 1110 00:55:58,556 --> 00:56:01,490 I JUST TALKED TO ERIC. MM-HMM. 1111 00:56:01,492 --> 00:56:04,793 HE WAS LIKE, "YOU NEED TO GO TO TEXAS." 1112 00:56:04,795 --> 00:56:07,863 I TOLD HIM EVERYBODY ELSE WAS AGAINST IT. 1113 00:56:07,865 --> 00:56:09,064 YEAH. 1114 00:56:09,066 --> 00:56:11,400 WELL, HE DIDN'T SEE YOUR PROGRESS YOU MADE. 1115 00:56:11,402 --> 00:56:12,968 THAT'S A GOOD POINT. YEAH. 1116 00:56:12,970 --> 00:56:14,570 THAT'S A VERY GOOD POINT. 1117 00:56:14,572 --> 00:56:16,839 I'M GONNA TALK TO DR. NOW TOMORROW. 1118 00:56:16,841 --> 00:56:20,042 I'M GONNA TELL HIM, WITHOUT FAMILY, I DON'T DO GOOD. 1119 00:56:20,044 --> 00:56:22,611 LIKE... EXACTLY. 1120 00:56:22,613 --> 00:56:24,513 TELL HIM, LIKE, HOW WELL YOU'RE DOING, 1121 00:56:24,515 --> 00:56:27,750 AND THEN TELL HIM WHAT YOU'RE DOING, 1122 00:56:27,752 --> 00:56:29,918 SEE IF HE WANTS YOU TO MAKE ANY CHANGES, 1123 00:56:29,920 --> 00:56:32,121 AND HE COULD GIVE YOU A GOAL WEIGHT. 1124 00:56:32,123 --> 00:56:34,323 AND EXPLAIN TO HIM THAT YOU JUST WANT TO TRAVEL DOWN THERE 1125 00:56:34,325 --> 00:56:37,326 FOR EACH SURGERY BUT KEEP YOUR HOME HERE. 1126 00:56:37,328 --> 00:56:39,895 YEAH. 1127 00:56:39,897 --> 00:56:42,264 I'LL TALK TO HIM AND SEE. 1128 00:56:42,266 --> 00:56:44,733 ALL RIGHT, WELL, I LOVE YOU. 1129 00:56:44,735 --> 00:56:46,769 LOVE YOU, EMMA JEAN. 1130 00:56:46,771 --> 00:56:48,370 EMMA, NANA SAID, "BYE." 1131 00:56:48,372 --> 00:56:50,005 BYE. SHE SAID, "BYE." 1132 00:56:50,007 --> 00:56:52,641 [ Chuckling ] BYE. 1133 00:56:52,643 --> 00:56:55,878 [ SNIFFLES ] 1134 00:56:55,880 --> 00:56:57,813 THAT IS TRUE. 1135 00:56:57,815 --> 00:56:59,348 I'VE DONE THIS ON MY OWN. 1136 00:56:59,350 --> 00:57:01,350 NOBODY'S BEEN HERE. 1137 00:57:01,352 --> 00:57:03,585 WHY DO I NEED TO LIVE IN TEXAS? 1138 00:57:03,587 --> 00:57:08,891 I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY I HAVE TO LIVE THERE TO JUST DIET. 1139 00:57:08,893 --> 00:57:11,326 I CAN DEFINITELY TELL THAT I'M LOSING WEIGHT. 1140 00:57:11,328 --> 00:57:13,962 THAT'S WHY I DON'T QUIT THE DIET PART. 1141 00:57:13,964 --> 00:57:18,100 BUT I DID THAT HERE WITHOUT DR. NOW. 1142 00:57:18,102 --> 00:57:20,068 THAT'S HOW I LOOK AT IT, 1143 00:57:20,070 --> 00:57:23,505 AND THAT'S HOW EVERYBODY IN MY FAMILY IS IN MY EAR. 1144 00:57:23,507 --> 00:57:26,141 "HOW DID HE HELP YOU LOSE THAT WEIGHT?" 1145 00:57:26,143 --> 00:57:30,813 THERE'S NO REASON WHY I CAN'T KEEP DOING IT ON MY OWN IN OHIO. 1146 00:57:30,815 --> 00:57:34,183 SO, I POSSIBLY WILL TALK TO HIM AND ASK HIM, 1147 00:57:34,185 --> 00:57:37,986 "WHY CAN I NOT LOSE WEIGHT HERE?" 1148 00:57:37,988 --> 00:57:40,722 I DON'T FEEL LIKE I'M SABOTAGING MYSELF AT ALL, 1149 00:57:40,724 --> 00:57:43,425 BECAUSE IF IT WAS THAT, I WOULD JUST QUIT. 1150 00:57:43,427 --> 00:57:45,327 YOU KNOW, I WOULD DO THE REAL SABOTAGING. 1151 00:57:45,329 --> 00:57:47,329 I DON'T HALF-ASS ANYTHING. 1152 00:57:57,708 --> 00:58:06,348 ♪ 1153 00:58:06,350 --> 00:58:14,356 ♪ 1154 00:58:14,358 --> 00:58:21,797 ♪ 1155 00:58:21,799 --> 00:58:24,633 I'M CALLING DR. NOW TODAY TO CHECK IN WITH HIM, 1156 00:58:24,635 --> 00:58:28,704 BECAUSE IT'S BEEN THREE MONTHS SINCE I HAD SEEN HIM. 1157 00:58:28,706 --> 00:58:30,472 I KNOW HE WAS WANTING ME TO BE THERE, 1158 00:58:30,474 --> 00:58:35,544 AND I HAVEN'T, AND SO I NEED TO TELL HIM WHY I'M NOT THERE. 1159 00:58:35,546 --> 00:58:38,947 I'VE BEEN DRAGGING MY FEET GOING TO HOUSTON, NUMBER ONE, 1160 00:58:38,949 --> 00:58:41,717 BECAUSE THE FAMILY DON'T WANT ME TO GO. 1161 00:58:41,719 --> 00:58:46,154 AND, OF COURSE, THAT MAKES ME FEEL GOOD, BECAUSE THEY LOVE ME. 1162 00:58:46,156 --> 00:58:49,491 NUMBER TWO, I DO THINK THERE'S NO NEED FOR ME 1163 00:58:49,493 --> 00:58:52,027 TO LIVE IN HOUSTON JUST TO LOSE WEIGHT. 1164 00:58:52,029 --> 00:58:55,497 IT WOULD BE DIFFERENT IF I WAS THERE GETTING SURGERY 1165 00:58:55,499 --> 00:58:56,798 AND HAVING TO SEE THE DOCTOR, 1166 00:58:56,800 --> 00:59:00,402 BUT I SEE NO USE IN HAVING TO LIFT MY LIFE UP 1167 00:59:00,404 --> 00:59:02,804 AND MOVE THERE JUST TO BE ON A DIET. 1168 00:59:02,806 --> 00:59:06,041 SO I POSSIBLY WILL TALK TO HIM AND ASK HIM, 1169 00:59:06,043 --> 00:59:08,443 "WHY CAN I NOT COME DOWN THERE ONCE A MONTH 1170 00:59:08,445 --> 00:59:10,012 TO WEIGH IN WITH HIM?" 1171 00:59:10,014 --> 00:59:12,347 AND BEST-CASE SCENARIO, HE SAYS, "YOU KNOW WHAT? 1172 00:59:12,349 --> 00:59:14,683 THERE'S A FIRST TIME FOR EVERYTHING. 1173 00:59:14,685 --> 00:59:16,084 LET'S TRY THIS OUT. 1174 00:59:16,086 --> 00:59:18,720 YOU STAY IN OHIO AND DIET, BUT PROMISE ME, 1175 00:59:18,722 --> 00:59:21,423 WHEN IT'S TIME TO GET ANY KIND OF SURGERY, 1176 00:59:21,425 --> 00:59:23,091 THEN YOU HAVE TO LIVE HERE 1177 00:59:23,093 --> 00:59:24,893 FOR AT LEAST SIX WEEKS OR WHATEVER, 1178 00:59:24,895 --> 00:59:26,795 OR YOU'RE NOT ALLOWED TO HAVE SURGERY." 1179 00:59:26,797 --> 00:59:31,800 ♪ 1180 00:59:31,802 --> 00:59:33,402 HI, ANGELA. 1181 00:59:33,404 --> 00:59:35,704 HI, DR. NOW. HOW ARE YOU? 1182 00:59:35,706 --> 00:59:37,406 I'M DOING OKAY. HOW ABOUT YOU? 1183 00:59:37,408 --> 00:59:38,674 I'M DOING GOOD. 1184 00:59:38,676 --> 00:59:40,108 THANK YOU FOR TAKING MY CALL. 1185 00:59:40,110 --> 00:59:41,543 WELL, WHAT'S GOING ON WITH YOU? 1186 00:59:41,545 --> 00:59:45,514 BECAUSE IT'S BEEN OVER THREE MONTHS SINCE I SAW YOU, 1187 00:59:45,516 --> 00:59:48,517 AND YOU HAVEN'T BEEN BY FOR YOUR SECOND APPOINTMENT. 1188 00:59:48,519 --> 00:59:50,252 SO, WHAT'S GOING ON? 1189 00:59:50,254 --> 00:59:53,989 I'M HAVING PROBLEMS TRYING TO FIND A PLACE TO LIVE THERE 1190 00:59:53,991 --> 00:59:57,292 AND A LOT OF HESITATION IN REGARDS TO MOVING. 1191 00:59:57,294 --> 00:59:59,795 HOLD ON, ANGELA. YOU HAVEN'T EVEN BEEN BACK 1192 00:59:59,797 --> 01:00:02,531 TO SHOW ME YOU HIT THE GOAL I GAVE YOU. 1193 01:00:02,533 --> 01:00:04,967 AND YOU'RE ALREADY COMING UP WITH EXCUSES 1194 01:00:04,969 --> 01:00:06,468 AND MISSING APPOINTMENTS 1195 01:00:06,470 --> 01:00:09,371 WITHOUT US EVEN HEARING FROM YOU. 1196 01:00:09,373 --> 01:00:11,473 SO YOU NEED TO DECIDE IF DOING THIS 1197 01:00:11,475 --> 01:00:14,509 AND SAVING YOUR LIFE IS IMPORTANT ENOUGH FOR YOU 1198 01:00:14,511 --> 01:00:16,545 AND WHETHER YOU WANT TO BE PART OF THE PROGRAM 1199 01:00:16,547 --> 01:00:18,714 OR YOU DON'T WANT TO BE PART OF THE PROGRAM. 1200 01:00:18,716 --> 01:00:21,350 I DO WANT TO BE PART OF THE PROGRAM. 1201 01:00:21,352 --> 01:00:23,552 WELL, IF YOU WANT TO BE PART OF THE PROGRAM, 1202 01:00:23,554 --> 01:00:25,554 YOU NEED TO KEEP YOUR APPOINTMENT 1203 01:00:25,556 --> 01:00:28,490 AND MAKE SURE THAT YOU SHOW UP, 1204 01:00:28,492 --> 01:00:30,092 INSTEAD OF DOING WHATEVER YOU WANT, 1205 01:00:30,094 --> 01:00:32,594 BECAUSE YOU'RE NOT DOING THIS ON YOUR TIMETABLE. 1206 01:00:32,596 --> 01:00:34,262 THAT'S NOT HOW IT WORKS. 1207 01:00:34,264 --> 01:00:37,432 I GAVE YOU A GOAL OF LOSING 40 POUNDS IN TWO MONTHS. 1208 01:00:37,434 --> 01:00:40,869 THAT'S A VERY EASY GOAL, BUT THAT'S OVER THREE MONTHS. 1209 01:00:40,871 --> 01:00:43,271 AND IF YOU ARE TOTALLY STICKING TO YOUR DIET FOR THAT LONG, 1210 01:00:43,273 --> 01:00:44,973 I WOULD EXPECT TO SEE MORE PROGRESS 1211 01:00:44,975 --> 01:00:46,441 TO PROVE TO ME YOU'RE 1212 01:00:46,443 --> 01:00:48,710 MAKING ANY LEVEL OF CHANGES THAT YOU NEED. 1213 01:00:48,712 --> 01:00:52,114 SO, OVER THREE MONTHS, YOUR GOAL WOULD BE 60 POUNDS. 1214 01:00:52,116 --> 01:00:55,017 I'VE LOST OVER 70 POUNDS. 1215 01:00:55,019 --> 01:00:58,286 YES, BUT WE NEED TO JUST TAKE YOUR WORD FOR THAT? 1216 01:00:58,288 --> 01:00:59,655 THAT -- YES, SIR. 1217 01:00:59,657 --> 01:01:03,125 SO, WILL YOU BE ABLE TO GO SOMEWHERE TO WEIGH YOURSELF? 1218 01:01:03,127 --> 01:01:05,994 HOW DO YOU KNOW WHAT YOU WEIGH? 1219 01:01:05,996 --> 01:01:07,896 NOT THAT I KNOW WHAT MY WEIGHT IS, 1220 01:01:07,898 --> 01:01:10,399 BUT I CAN NOW FIT IN MY VAN. 1221 01:01:10,401 --> 01:01:12,834 I NOW DON'T SIT IN MY BED. 1222 01:01:12,836 --> 01:01:15,303 I NOW GO WALK. 1223 01:01:15,305 --> 01:01:17,506 AND I DON'T SIT IN MY HOUSE. 1224 01:01:17,508 --> 01:01:20,542 WE GO OUT AND LEAVE THE HOUSE EVERY DAY. 1225 01:01:20,544 --> 01:01:23,278 AND I WASN'T ABLE TO DO THAT. NOW I CAN. 1226 01:01:23,280 --> 01:01:25,547 SO, YOU'RE GUESSING YOU LOST 70 POUNDS. 1227 01:01:25,549 --> 01:01:27,416 I'M NOT SURE HOW YOU CAN TELL THAT 1228 01:01:27,418 --> 01:01:28,750 WITHOUT KNOWING YOUR WEIGHT. 1229 01:01:28,752 --> 01:01:31,386 BUT IF YOU'RE CONFIDENT YOU MADE THAT MUCH PROGRESS, 1230 01:01:31,388 --> 01:01:33,488 WHY COULDN'T YOU COME AND SEE US? 1231 01:01:33,490 --> 01:01:35,457 THAT'S WHAT I'M TRYING TO DO NOW. 1232 01:01:35,459 --> 01:01:38,160 BUT WE HAVEN'T HEARD FROM YOU FOR THREE MONTHS, 1233 01:01:38,162 --> 01:01:40,929 AND YOU HAVEN'T RESCHEDULED OR LET US KNOW ANYTHING. 1234 01:01:40,931 --> 01:01:42,330 THAT IS A LONG TIME. 1235 01:01:42,332 --> 01:01:46,101 I GUESS I DID NOT REALIZE THAT IT'S BEEN THAT LONG. 1236 01:01:46,103 --> 01:01:50,372 I NEED TO GET THERE, SO I UNDER-- I KNOW. 1237 01:01:50,374 --> 01:01:54,342 SO, WHAT'S THE HOLD-UP FROM COMING DOWN TO HOUSTON? 1238 01:01:54,344 --> 01:01:57,979 TO BE VERY HONEST, SIR, THE DIET'S NOT A PROBLEM. 1239 01:01:57,981 --> 01:01:59,614 I FEEL GREAT ABOUT DIETING. 1240 01:01:59,616 --> 01:02:02,651 I JUST FEEL LIKE BEING CLOSE TO THE FAMILY 1241 01:02:02,653 --> 01:02:04,386 IS HELPING ME WITH MY DIET. 1242 01:02:04,388 --> 01:02:07,823 AND I FEEL LIKE ME GOING TO HOUSTON ALONE, BY MYSELF -- 1243 01:02:07,825 --> 01:02:09,825 I JUST THINK IT WOULDN'T BE GOOD FOR ME. 1244 01:02:09,827 --> 01:02:13,962 I WANT TO BE YOUR PATIENT AND I WANT TO BE IN THE PROGRAM, 1245 01:02:13,964 --> 01:02:18,433 SO I HAD THOUGHT IT WAS NOT A GOOD IDA FOR ME. 1246 01:02:18,435 --> 01:02:20,936 EVEN THOUGH I WANT TO DO THE DIETING, 1247 01:02:20,938 --> 01:02:22,137 I WISH YOU WOULD SAY, 1248 01:02:22,139 --> 01:02:23,872 "THERE'S A FIRST TIME FOR EVERYTHING. 1249 01:02:23,874 --> 01:02:25,807 LOSE THE WEIGHT WHILE YOU'RE THERE." 1250 01:02:25,809 --> 01:02:28,577 AND THEN IF YOU EVER DO ANY TYPE OF SKIN SURGERY ON ME, 1251 01:02:28,579 --> 01:02:30,545 THEN, YES, I HAVE TO STAY THERE, 1252 01:02:30,547 --> 01:02:33,048 LIKE, IN A HOTEL FOR A MONTH OR SO. 1253 01:02:33,050 --> 01:02:35,250 BUT AS FAR AS MOVING ALL THE WAY THERE 1254 01:02:35,252 --> 01:02:37,853 JUST TO BE ON MY DIET AND TO LOSE POUNDS, 1255 01:02:37,855 --> 01:02:39,454 I WISH YOU WOULD SAY, 1256 01:02:39,456 --> 01:02:41,556 "LET'S DO A FIRST TIME FOR EVERYTHING, 1257 01:02:41,558 --> 01:02:44,192 AND, ANGELA, STAY IN OHIO AND LOSE WEIGHT. 1258 01:02:44,194 --> 01:02:47,562 COME SEE ME ONCE EVERY TWO MONTHS." 1259 01:02:47,564 --> 01:02:50,132 SO IT SOUNDS LIKE YOU WANT TO MAKE YOUR OWN PROGRAM 1260 01:02:50,134 --> 01:02:52,033 AND JUST TELL ME HOW IT'S GONNA WORK, 1261 01:02:52,035 --> 01:02:53,401 BECAUSE YOU'RE THE EXCEPTION 1262 01:02:53,403 --> 01:02:56,471 TO THE THOUSANDS OF PEOPLE LIKE YOU I HAVE HELPED. 1263 01:02:56,473 --> 01:02:59,141 I MEAN, IT IS WHAT IT IS. 1264 01:02:59,143 --> 01:03:02,244 IF YOUR FAMILY ACTUALLY WAS HELPING YOU LIKE YOU SAY, 1265 01:03:02,246 --> 01:03:05,547 THEN YOU'D HAVE LOST THE WEIGHT A LONG TIME AGO. 1266 01:03:05,549 --> 01:03:07,516 SO, WHAT IS THE MAGIC 1267 01:03:07,518 --> 01:03:09,451 OF STAYING WITH THE SAME ENVIRONMENT 1268 01:03:09,453 --> 01:03:12,220 THAT GOT YOU TO BE 600 POUNDS? 1269 01:03:12,222 --> 01:03:14,456 WELL, I'VE GOT A NEW GRANDBABY. 1270 01:03:14,458 --> 01:03:17,259 I HAVE A CHILD THAT I TOOK CUSTODY OF. 1271 01:03:17,261 --> 01:03:19,828 IT'S NOT EXACTLY THE SAME ENVIRONMENT. 1272 01:03:19,830 --> 01:03:21,696 ANGELA, IF YOU COULD DO IT 1273 01:03:21,698 --> 01:03:23,398 ON YOUR OWN, HOWEVER YOU WANTED, 1274 01:03:23,400 --> 01:03:26,268 THEN YOU WOULD HAVE NEVER GOTTEN OVER 600 POUNDS 1275 01:03:26,270 --> 01:03:27,602 IN THE FIRST PLACE. 1276 01:03:27,604 --> 01:03:29,538 AND IF YOU ARE LOSING WEIGHT NOW, 1277 01:03:29,540 --> 01:03:32,207 WHICH IS SERIOUSLY IN DOUBT, THEN YOU'RE NEVER GOING TO BE 1278 01:03:32,209 --> 01:03:34,109 ABLE TO MAINTAIN THAT ON YOUR OWN 1279 01:03:34,111 --> 01:03:36,344 WITHOUT PROPER TOOLS AND SUPPORT. 1280 01:03:36,346 --> 01:03:38,647 LOSING WEIGHT FOR THE SHORT TERM, 1281 01:03:38,649 --> 01:03:40,182 VERSUS THE LONG TERM 1282 01:03:40,184 --> 01:03:42,450 IS A COMPLETELY DIFFERENT PROCESS, 1283 01:03:42,452 --> 01:03:44,920 AND THAT'S WHY YOU NEED TO BE HERE IN HOUSTON. 1284 01:03:44,922 --> 01:03:46,988 BUT WE'RE NOT EVEN TO THAT POINT WITH YOU YET, 1285 01:03:46,990 --> 01:03:49,124 BECAUSE BEFORE THAT'S EVEN AN OPTION, 1286 01:03:49,126 --> 01:03:51,827 I NEED TO SEE THIS ISN'T SOME GAME FOR YOU 1287 01:03:51,829 --> 01:03:53,995 AND YOU THINK YOU CAN MANIPULATE ME 1288 01:03:53,997 --> 01:03:55,330 INTO GIVING YOU SYMPATHY 1289 01:03:55,332 --> 01:03:57,132 AND THAT YOU'RE WILLING TO PUT IN THE WORK 1290 01:03:57,134 --> 01:04:00,035 TO DO THIS BY LOSING THE WEIGHT YOU NEED. 1291 01:04:00,037 --> 01:04:03,104 SO, RIGHT NOW, YOU NEED TO COME BACK FOR AN APPOINTMENT 1292 01:04:03,106 --> 01:04:07,275 SO WE CAN DO THAT. OKAY. 1293 01:04:07,277 --> 01:04:11,079 THAT'S UNDERSTANDABLE, YES. I UNDERSTAND. 1294 01:04:11,081 --> 01:04:14,082 SO, ARE YOU GOING TO DO IT, OR ARE YOU NOT GOING TO DO IT? 1295 01:04:14,084 --> 01:04:15,317 I WILL DO IT. 1296 01:04:15,319 --> 01:04:18,019 IF YOU DON'T WANT -- IF YOU SAY, "NO, ANGELA, 1297 01:04:18,021 --> 01:04:22,257 YOU CANNOT BE MY PATIENT AND LOSE WEIGHT IN OHIO," 1298 01:04:22,259 --> 01:04:24,559 THEN I'LL SAY, "THEN I WILL MOVE TO HOUSTON. 1299 01:04:24,561 --> 01:04:25,994 YES, I WILL DO IT." 1300 01:04:25,996 --> 01:04:27,662 WELL, WHAT YOU'RE ASKING ME TO DO 1301 01:04:27,664 --> 01:04:30,098 IS BASICALLY PUT YOU IN AN HONOR SYSTEM, 1302 01:04:30,100 --> 01:04:32,567 WHERE YOU MONITOR AND MOTIVATE YOURSELF, 1303 01:04:32,569 --> 01:04:35,237 WHEN YOU ALREADY FAILED WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY ONCE. 1304 01:04:35,239 --> 01:04:38,974 A LIFETIME OF PATHOLOGY DOESN'T JUST GO AWAY OVERNIGHT. 1305 01:04:38,976 --> 01:04:41,743 AND SEEING AS HOW YOU MISSED YOUR APPOINTMENT 1306 01:04:41,745 --> 01:04:43,511 AND YOU GAVE ME EXCUSES, 1307 01:04:43,513 --> 01:04:47,015 I THINK IT IS MORE LIKELY YOU ARE LYING TO ME RIGHT NOW. 1308 01:04:47,017 --> 01:04:48,783 BUT IF YOU WANT TO, FROM HERE ON, 1309 01:04:48,785 --> 01:04:52,153 WE'RE GONNA HAVE TO SEE YOU WITHIN A WEEK, OKAY? 1310 01:04:52,155 --> 01:04:53,255 THAT'S FINE. 1311 01:04:53,257 --> 01:04:55,156 YOU WON'T SEE ME, BUT I UNDERSTAND. 1312 01:04:55,158 --> 01:04:58,059 THAT'S FINE. 1313 01:04:58,061 --> 01:05:00,662 I'VE GOT SOMETHING HERE THAT HAS TO BE HANDLED. 1314 01:05:00,664 --> 01:05:02,831 SO, YOU'VE GOT EXCUSES FOR EVERYTHING. 1315 01:05:02,833 --> 01:05:05,267 THIS ISN'T A GOOD SITUATION WITH YOU AT ALL. 1316 01:05:05,269 --> 01:05:08,370 AND I THINK THE REAL MATTER IS THAT YOU'RE TRYING TO COVER 1317 01:05:08,372 --> 01:05:10,672 THE FACT THAT YOU HAVEN'T LOST WHAT YOU NEED. 1318 01:05:10,674 --> 01:05:12,874 AND YOU'RE PRETENDING ALL THESE OTHER ISSUES 1319 01:05:12,876 --> 01:05:15,443 ARE THE REASON BEHIND WHY YOU HAVEN'T COME DOWN. 1320 01:05:15,445 --> 01:05:17,045 SO, WHAT I'M GONNA DO IS, 1321 01:05:17,047 --> 01:05:20,015 WE'LL SCHEDULE YOUR APPOINTMENT FOR A MONTH FROM NOW. 1322 01:05:20,017 --> 01:05:22,450 BUT YOUR WEIGHT-LOSS GOAL TO HIT FOR THEN 1323 01:05:22,452 --> 01:05:24,686 IS 60 POUNDS NOW, INSTEAD OF 40. 1324 01:05:24,688 --> 01:05:26,521 THAT'S STILL A VERY EASY GOAL FOR YOU, 1325 01:05:26,523 --> 01:05:27,989 AND IF YOU STICK TO YOUR DIET, 1326 01:05:27,991 --> 01:05:29,925 YOU SHOULD BE ABLE TO LOSE MORE THAN THAT. 1327 01:05:29,927 --> 01:05:32,227 BUT THIS GIVES YOU SOME TIME TO GET YOU HELP 1328 01:05:32,229 --> 01:05:35,163 AND GET TO WHERE YOU NEED, IF YOU WANT TO GET SERIOUS NOW. 1329 01:05:35,165 --> 01:05:37,465 BUT IF NOT AND YOU PLAY MORE GAMES, 1330 01:05:37,467 --> 01:05:40,035 THEN YOU WON'T HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT MOVING TO HOUSTON, 1331 01:05:40,037 --> 01:05:43,405 BECAUSE THE PROGRAM WON'T BE AN OPTION FOR YOU. 1332 01:05:43,407 --> 01:05:44,706 OKAY, THEN I'LL TRY. 1333 01:05:44,708 --> 01:05:47,008 I'LL LET YOU KNOW. I'LL TRY. 1334 01:05:47,010 --> 01:05:48,443 OKAY, YOU DO THAT. 1335 01:05:48,445 --> 01:05:51,012 BUT KEEP IN MIND THAT YOU'RE PLAYING WITH FIRE, ANGELA, 1336 01:05:51,014 --> 01:05:53,315 BECAUSE, RIGHT NOW, IF YOU DON'T LOSE WEIGHT, 1337 01:05:53,317 --> 01:05:55,617 THEN YOU'RE NOT GONNA LIVE TILL YOU'RE 50. 1338 01:05:55,619 --> 01:05:57,652 AND FROM WHAT YOU TOLD ME, 1339 01:05:57,654 --> 01:06:00,155 YOU KNOW YOUR BODY WON'T MAKE IT TO THAT POINT. 1340 01:06:00,157 --> 01:06:03,591 SO THIS IS YOUR ONLY CHANCE IF YOU WANT TO CHANGE THAT. 1341 01:06:03,593 --> 01:06:06,394 I DO AGREE. WELL, START TO PROVE IT, 1342 01:06:06,396 --> 01:06:08,163 BECAUSE I HAVE SERIOUS CONCERNS 1343 01:06:08,165 --> 01:06:09,931 ABOUT YOUR COMMITMENT RIGHT NOW. 1344 01:06:09,933 --> 01:06:12,000 SO MAKE SURE YOU COME DOWN TO HOUSTON 1345 01:06:12,002 --> 01:06:14,402 AND BE HERE FOR YOUR APPOINTMENT NEXT MONTH 1346 01:06:14,404 --> 01:06:18,039 AND HAVING LOST 60 POUNDS. I WILL DO THAT. 1347 01:06:18,041 --> 01:06:20,709 I AM COMMITTED, SIR, AND I'M GONNA DO THE WORK. 1348 01:06:20,711 --> 01:06:23,878 AND I DO WANT TO BE PART OF THE PROGRAM. 1349 01:06:23,880 --> 01:06:25,981 OKAY. THANK YOU, SIR. 1350 01:06:25,983 --> 01:06:27,949 YOU HAVE A GOOD DAY. YOU TOO. 1351 01:06:27,951 --> 01:06:35,790 ♪ 1352 01:06:35,792 --> 01:06:38,593 Angela: EVERYTHING DR. NOW SAID MADE SENSE. 1353 01:06:38,595 --> 01:06:39,761 AND I AGREE MORE NOW. 1354 01:06:39,763 --> 01:06:41,863 IT'S MORE IMPORTANT TO BE DOWN THERE. 1355 01:06:41,865 --> 01:06:44,632 SO THE NEXT STEP FOR ME IS TO GO IN THE NEXT COUPLE WEEKS 1356 01:06:44,634 --> 01:06:48,303 AND LOOK AT APARTMENTS IN PERSON. 1357 01:06:48,305 --> 01:06:52,007 IF I DO FIND SOMETHING I LIKE OR IF I DO HAVE A GOOD FEELING, 1358 01:06:52,009 --> 01:06:55,043 IT WILL HELP ME KNOW THAT THIS IS THE RIGHT THING TO DO. 1359 01:06:55,045 --> 01:06:58,313 IF I GO DOWN THERE AND IT'S ALL NEGATIVE, 1360 01:06:58,315 --> 01:07:01,783 THEN I'LL KNOW IT'S THE WRONG THING TO DO. 1361 01:07:01,785 --> 01:07:04,719 BUT I AM NOT BUILDING A LIFE IN HOUSTON. 1362 01:07:04,721 --> 01:07:06,621 I'M GOING TO FOCUS 1363 01:07:06,623 --> 01:07:11,893 ON NOTHING BUT ME AND MY HEALTH AND DR. NOW. 1364 01:07:11,895 --> 01:07:13,928 I JUST HOPE I'M ABLE TO DO THIS. 1365 01:07:13,930 --> 01:07:16,097 [ SIGHS ] 1366 01:07:24,808 --> 01:07:31,379 ♪ 1367 01:07:31,381 --> 01:07:39,054 ♪ 1368 01:07:39,056 --> 01:07:47,862 ♪ 1369 01:07:47,864 --> 01:07:50,098 Angela: TODAY I HAD A DOCTOR'S APPOINTMENT. 1370 01:07:50,100 --> 01:07:52,067 BUT I MISSED IT. 1371 01:07:52,069 --> 01:07:55,870 HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO GO TO HOUSTON WHEN I'M SICK? 1372 01:07:55,872 --> 01:07:59,374 [ Voice breaking ] THAT'S RIDICULOUS. 1373 01:07:59,376 --> 01:08:03,678 THE ODDS ARE STACKED AGAINST ME, 100%. 1374 01:08:03,680 --> 01:08:07,749 GETTING TO HOUSTON WAS GETTING IMPOSSIBLE. 1375 01:08:07,751 --> 01:08:10,585 I FEEL MORE LIKE GOING TO THE EMERGENCY ROOM. 1376 01:08:10,587 --> 01:08:13,721 Andrea: HELLO? 1377 01:08:13,723 --> 01:08:15,790 YO, WHERE WAS YOU AT? 1378 01:08:17,794 --> 01:08:20,795 DO YOU THINK YOU COULD DRIVE ME TO THE E.R. 1379 01:08:20,797 --> 01:08:24,933 SO DR. NOW SEES I REALLY AM SICK 1380 01:08:24,935 --> 01:08:28,703 AND I'M NOT JUST BLOWING HIM OFF? 1381 01:08:28,705 --> 01:08:30,271 YEAH. ALL RIGHT, HONEY. 1382 01:08:30,273 --> 01:08:32,407 I LOVE YOU. YOU TOO. 1383 01:08:32,409 --> 01:08:33,842 BYE. 1384 01:08:37,814 --> 01:08:39,781 SOMETHING'S NOT RIGHT. 1385 01:08:39,783 --> 01:08:41,716 RIGHT NOW, I CAN'T BREATHE. 1386 01:08:41,718 --> 01:08:44,786 I'M HAVING A BAD DAY. 1387 01:08:44,788 --> 01:08:48,223 I FEEL REALLY ON FIRE. 1388 01:08:48,225 --> 01:08:51,526 I FEEL LIKE MY INSIDES ARE SHAKING. 1389 01:08:51,528 --> 01:08:54,696 I NEVER HAD MY BODY GO NUMB LIKE THIS. 1390 01:08:54,698 --> 01:08:56,498 I FEEL LIKE I'M LOSING MY MIND. 1391 01:08:56,500 --> 01:08:58,600 I FEEL LIKE SOMETHING'S NOT RIGHT IN MY MIND. 1392 01:08:58,602 --> 01:09:02,237 AND I JUST DON'T WANT TO BE IN THE HOSPITAL. 1393 01:09:02,239 --> 01:09:05,306 I DON'T WANT TO SIT THERE HOOKED UP ON THEIR MACHINES, 1394 01:09:05,308 --> 01:09:08,676 BECAUSE I KNOW WHAT IT'S LIKE WHEN THEY LOCK ME UP. 1395 01:09:08,678 --> 01:09:10,545 YEAH. 1396 01:09:10,547 --> 01:09:13,314 IT'S, LIKE, REALLY GETTING SCARY. 1397 01:09:13,316 --> 01:09:16,084 BUT DR. NOW CAN'T BE MAD 1398 01:09:16,086 --> 01:09:18,686 BECAUSE OF ME BEING AS SICK AS I AM. 1399 01:09:18,688 --> 01:09:21,356 [ GRUNTS ] 1400 01:09:32,502 --> 01:09:39,374 ♪ 1401 01:09:39,376 --> 01:09:43,044 I FEEL LIKE I CAN'T DO THIS AT ALL ANYMORE. 1402 01:09:43,046 --> 01:09:45,713 I FEEL LIKE I'M TIRED OF FIGHTING. 1403 01:09:45,715 --> 01:09:48,750 I JUST WANT A PILL AND TAKE IT BETTER. 1404 01:09:48,752 --> 01:09:52,187 BUT THAT'S ALL I'VE DONE IS TAKE PILLS FOR A WEEK. 1405 01:09:52,189 --> 01:09:54,489 HI. NO, SIR. 1406 01:09:54,491 --> 01:09:56,858 THERE'S NO PILL TO FIX IT. 1407 01:09:56,860 --> 01:09:59,627 I'M JUST -- I KEEP BLACKING OUT. 1408 01:09:59,629 --> 01:10:02,830 I THINK THERE'S A PILL TO TAPER IT OFF, 1409 01:10:02,832 --> 01:10:05,300 BUT I DON'T WANT TO DIE EITHER. 1410 01:10:05,302 --> 01:10:07,502 AND I REALLY JUST WANT THIS TO END. 1411 01:10:07,504 --> 01:10:16,211 ♪ 1412 01:10:16,213 --> 01:10:24,752 ♪ 1413 01:10:24,754 --> 01:10:31,359 ♪ 1414 01:10:31,361 --> 01:10:33,428 Dr. Nowzaradan: WE SEEM TO HAVE 1415 01:10:33,430 --> 01:10:36,197 A VERY SERIOUS SITUATION WITH ANGELA. 1416 01:10:36,199 --> 01:10:38,733 SHE HAS MISSED HER LAST TWO APPOINTMENTS NOW, 1417 01:10:38,735 --> 01:10:43,004 SO IT'S BEEN SIX MONTHS SINCE I ORIGINALLY SAW HER. 1418 01:10:43,006 --> 01:10:46,374 WHEN SHE MISSED HER FOLLOW-UP APPOINTMENT FOR THE FIRST TIME, 1419 01:10:46,376 --> 01:10:49,811 SHE BLAMED NOT BEING ABLE TO FIND A PLACE TO LIVE IN HOUSTON, 1420 01:10:49,813 --> 01:10:53,114 WHEN WE WERE NOT EVEN TO THAT POINT WITH HER YET. 1421 01:10:53,116 --> 01:10:55,783 AND THIS LAST TIME, SHE CLAIMS SHE WAS TOO SICK 1422 01:10:55,785 --> 01:10:59,020 AND NEEDED TIME TO RECOVER, WHILE SHE AVOIDED OUR CALLS 1423 01:10:59,022 --> 01:11:02,890 AND DIDN'T RETURN MOST OF OUR MESSAGES FOR THE PAST FEW WEEKS. 1424 01:11:02,892 --> 01:11:06,361 BUT SHE FINALLY RESPONDED, SAYING SHE'S BETTER NOW 1425 01:11:06,363 --> 01:11:09,764 AND CAN FINALLY TALK, SO WE SET A CALL WITH HER TODAY 1426 01:11:09,766 --> 01:11:12,900 TO GIVE HER ONE LAST CHANCE TO DO WHAT SHE NEEDS. 1427 01:11:12,902 --> 01:11:17,105 BUT I'M NOT INTERESTED IN ANY MORE OF HER EXCUSES OR GAMES. 1428 01:11:17,107 --> 01:11:19,674 AND AT THIS POINT, I HAVE SIGNIFICANT DOUBT 1429 01:11:19,676 --> 01:11:21,576 AS TO WHETHER SHE'S REALLY WILLING 1430 01:11:21,578 --> 01:11:23,378 TO ACTUALLY PUT ANY EFFORT 1431 01:11:23,380 --> 01:11:26,781 IN MAKING LIFE CHANGES SHE NEEDS TO SAVE HER LIFE. 1432 01:11:26,783 --> 01:11:34,555 ♪ 1433 01:11:34,557 --> 01:11:37,025 Angela: I'M CALLING DR. NOW TODAY, 1434 01:11:37,027 --> 01:11:39,827 BASICALLY TO CHECK IN 1435 01:11:39,829 --> 01:11:43,464 AND BASICALLY JUST SEE WHAT HE SAYS. 1436 01:11:43,466 --> 01:11:46,167 HE THINKS I'M HOME, NOT DIETING. 1437 01:11:46,169 --> 01:11:49,237 HE BELIEVES I'VE GAINED WEIGHT. 1438 01:11:49,239 --> 01:11:54,609 AND I KNOW HE HAS HEARD EVERY EXCUSE IN THIS WORLD. 1439 01:11:54,611 --> 01:11:56,511 BUT I WANT HIM TO REALLY KNOW 1440 01:11:56,513 --> 01:11:59,447 THAT I'M GONNA KEEP LOSING WEIGHT. 1441 01:11:59,449 --> 01:12:01,249 THAT'S ALL. 1442 01:12:09,993 --> 01:12:11,225 HI, DR. NOW. 1443 01:12:11,227 --> 01:12:12,960 Dr. Nowzaradan: HI, ANGELA. HOW YOU DOING? 1444 01:12:12,962 --> 01:12:14,395 I'M GOOD. 1445 01:12:14,397 --> 01:12:16,631 SO, WE HAVE A BIT OF AN ISSUE AGAIN, 1446 01:12:16,633 --> 01:12:18,433 BECAUSE YOU MISSED YOUR APPOINTMENT AGAIN, 1447 01:12:18,435 --> 01:12:21,536 SAYING YOU WERE SICK, BUT IT TURNED OUT YOU WEREN'T. 1448 01:12:21,538 --> 01:12:23,938 SO, WHAT IS YOUR EXCUSE THIS TIME? 1449 01:12:23,940 --> 01:12:26,174 I JUST HAD SOME FAMILY THINGS GOING ON, 1450 01:12:26,176 --> 01:12:28,876 AND I HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE TO COME OUT TO TEXAS. 1451 01:12:28,878 --> 01:12:34,015 BUT I DO PLAN ON BEING OUT THERE TO, HOPEFULLY, GET AN APARTMENT. 1452 01:12:34,017 --> 01:12:35,983 I'VE HAD NO LUCK ON THIS END. 1453 01:12:35,985 --> 01:12:38,486 YOU'VE BEEN TRYING TO DO THAT FOR A WHILE NOW, 1454 01:12:38,488 --> 01:12:40,455 BUT YOU HAVEN'T BEEN GETTING BACK TO US 1455 01:12:40,457 --> 01:12:42,490 AND YOU'VE BEEN AVOIDING MY CALLS, 1456 01:12:42,492 --> 01:12:45,560 MAKING EXCUSES, AND LYING TO US. 1457 01:12:45,562 --> 01:12:47,061 BUT NOW YOU AREN'T SICK. 1458 01:12:47,063 --> 01:12:49,697 YOU HAVE COMPLETELY RECOVERED, IT SEEMS. 1459 01:12:49,699 --> 01:12:51,099 SO, WHAT'S THE REASON 1460 01:12:51,101 --> 01:12:53,000 YOU'RE STILL NOT COMING DOWN TO HOUSTON 1461 01:12:53,002 --> 01:12:55,670 TO SEE ME FOR YOUR FOLLOW-UP APPOINTMENT? 1462 01:12:55,672 --> 01:12:58,005 YOU KNOW WHAT? I'LL BE VERY HONEST WITH YOU. 1463 01:12:58,007 --> 01:12:59,540 I DON'T KNOW WHY IT TOOK SO LONG. 1464 01:12:59,542 --> 01:13:02,944 IT SEEMED LIKE SOMETHING WAS HAPPENING EVERY OTHER WEEK. 1465 01:13:02,946 --> 01:13:05,847 SO, YOU LET ANOTHER MONTH GO WITHOUT DOING 1466 01:13:05,849 --> 01:13:07,482 WHAT YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO BE DOING, 1467 01:13:07,484 --> 01:13:10,251 BECAUSE IT DOESN'T LOOK LIKE YOU HAVE LOST ANY WEIGHT, 1468 01:13:10,253 --> 01:13:14,856 SO YOU KEEP MAKING EXCUSES AND NOT COMING DOWN HERE 1469 01:13:14,858 --> 01:13:16,524 'CAUSE YOU'RE NOT SERIOUS ABOUT IT. 1470 01:13:16,526 --> 01:13:19,594 OKAY, YOU SAY I DON'T LOOK LIKE I'VE LOST ANY WEIGHT, 1471 01:13:19,596 --> 01:13:22,263 BUT I FEEL LIKE I'VE LOST A LOT OF WEIGHT. 1472 01:13:22,265 --> 01:13:25,066 I THINK THIS IS A LITTLE LIE YOU KEEP TELLING EVERYONE, 1473 01:13:25,068 --> 01:13:26,734 BECAUSE IF YOU HAVE LOST THE WEIGHT, 1474 01:13:26,736 --> 01:13:29,036 YOU WOULDN'T BE AVOIDING COMING BACK 1475 01:13:29,038 --> 01:13:30,605 TO SHOW ME YOUR PROGRESS. 1476 01:13:30,607 --> 01:13:32,273 THE MOST COMMON CAUSE OF PEOPLE 1477 01:13:32,275 --> 01:13:34,008 WHEN THEY DON'T SHOW UP FOR AN APPOINTMENT 1478 01:13:34,010 --> 01:13:35,843 IS BECAUSE THEY HAVEN'T LOST WEIGHT. 1479 01:13:35,845 --> 01:13:38,179 AND YOU'RE NOT ANY DIFFERENT THAN EVERYBODY ELSE. 1480 01:13:38,181 --> 01:13:40,448 AND EVERY TIME YOU MISS YOUR APPOINTMENT, 1481 01:13:40,450 --> 01:13:42,283 WE HAVEN'T HEARD FROM YOU, 1482 01:13:42,285 --> 01:13:44,752 AND YOU HAVEN'T CALLED, SO YOU ARE AVOIDING US. 1483 01:13:44,754 --> 01:13:46,821 AND THE REASON FOR THAT IS, RIGHT NOW, 1484 01:13:46,823 --> 01:13:48,322 I THINK YOU'RE BUYING TIME, 1485 01:13:48,324 --> 01:13:51,392 BECAUSE ONE OF THE DELUSIONS YOU CAN CONVINCE YOURSELF OF 1486 01:13:51,394 --> 01:13:53,494 IS THAT YOU'RE GOING TO DO IT EVENTUALLY. 1487 01:13:53,496 --> 01:13:55,897 BUT "EVENTUALLY" NEVER COMES, AND THEN, ONE DAY, 1488 01:13:55,899 --> 01:13:58,566 YOUR BODY GIVES OUT, AND THAT WILL BE IT FOR YOU. 1489 01:13:58,568 --> 01:14:00,234 SO, THE REAL REASON IS 1490 01:14:00,236 --> 01:14:02,670 THAT ALL THESE OTHER EXCUSES YOU'VE GIVEN, 1491 01:14:02,672 --> 01:14:04,372 IT IS THAT YOU'RE PLAYING GAMES 1492 01:14:04,374 --> 01:14:07,442 AND TRYING TO MANIPULATE ME IN YOUR SITUATION. 1493 01:14:07,444 --> 01:14:10,011 THAT'S NOT THE REASON WHATSOEVER. 1494 01:14:10,013 --> 01:14:12,313 THAT'S NOT MY EXCUSE WHATSOEVER. 1495 01:14:12,315 --> 01:14:14,315 I'VE BEEN ON YOUR DIET SINCE I LEFT, 1496 01:14:14,317 --> 01:14:16,317 AND I'M DOING GREAT. 1497 01:14:16,319 --> 01:14:19,253 YOU TELL ME YOU'VE COMPLETELY STUCK TO THE DIET 1498 01:14:19,255 --> 01:14:21,422 AND YOU HAVEN'T EVEN SETTLED ONCE WITH IT? 1499 01:14:21,424 --> 01:14:25,026 I CHEATED EATING, AND I HAD ALCOHOLIC DRINKS. 1500 01:14:25,028 --> 01:14:28,863 SO I DID HAVE A SETBACK FOR THREE NIGHTS. 1501 01:14:28,865 --> 01:14:31,699 BUT I FEEL LIKE I'VE MADE UP FOR IT. 1502 01:14:31,701 --> 01:14:34,502 THAT'S STILL A LIE. THE ONLY THING YOU HAVE -- 1503 01:14:34,504 --> 01:14:37,171 WHAT YOU SAY IS THAT YOU'VE BEEN CHEATING ON THE DIET. 1504 01:14:37,173 --> 01:14:39,674 BUT YOU DON'T NEED ME TO EXPLAIN THAT TO YOU, 1505 01:14:39,676 --> 01:14:41,242 BECAUSE YOU KNOW YOU'RE LYING, 1506 01:14:41,244 --> 01:14:43,344 AND THAT'S WHY YOU'RE AVOIDING COMING BACK -- 1507 01:14:43,346 --> 01:14:45,313 BECAUSE YOU HAVEN'T LOST ANY WEIGHT, 1508 01:14:45,315 --> 01:14:47,448 AND PROBABLY, YOU'VE GAINED SOME WEIGHT. 1509 01:14:47,450 --> 01:14:49,851 AND YOU WANT TO DELAY COMING DOWN HERE 1510 01:14:49,853 --> 01:14:53,721 SO YOU CAN LOSE WEIGHT AND GET BACK IN THE PROGRAM. 1511 01:14:53,723 --> 01:14:55,089 THAT'S NOT THE REASON. 1512 01:14:55,091 --> 01:14:57,358 I JUST HAVEN'T EVEN -- I'VE LOOKED FOR A PLACE 1513 01:14:57,360 --> 01:14:59,827 DOWN THERE, AND I HAVEN'T FOUND ANYTHING. 1514 01:14:59,829 --> 01:15:01,762 BUT I HAD THE PLANS, 1515 01:15:01,764 --> 01:15:04,832 AND I THINK I FOUND THE PLACE I WANT TO RENT. 1516 01:15:04,834 --> 01:15:07,768 SO I HOPE YOU STILL LET ME BE IN THE PROGRAM. 1517 01:15:07,770 --> 01:15:11,105 ANGELA, THIS ISN'T ABOUT FINDING A PLACE TO SAY IN HOUSTON. 1518 01:15:11,107 --> 01:15:13,875 I TOLD YOU LAST TIME, WE'RE NOT EVEN TO THAT POINT. 1519 01:15:13,877 --> 01:15:17,144 SO STOP WITH ALL THE EXCUSES AND LIES AND GAMES. 1520 01:15:17,146 --> 01:15:19,614 YOU HAVE SPENT YOUR WHOLE LIFE FINDING WAYS 1521 01:15:19,616 --> 01:15:21,415 TO MANIPULATE PEOPLE AROUND YOU 1522 01:15:21,417 --> 01:15:23,684 AND CREATING A FACADE AND DELUSION 1523 01:15:23,686 --> 01:15:27,154 THAT YOU'RE TRYING OR YOU'RE NOT EATING VERY MUCH 1524 01:15:27,156 --> 01:15:28,890 OR YOU'RE GONNA GET HEALTHY, 1525 01:15:28,892 --> 01:15:31,993 WHEN YOU HAVE NO REAL INTENTION OF DOING THAT. 1526 01:15:31,995 --> 01:15:33,928 YOU JUST WANT TO EAT WHAT YOU WANT 1527 01:15:33,930 --> 01:15:35,930 AND HOPE FOR A MAGIC SOLUTION 1528 01:15:35,932 --> 01:15:38,232 TO SAVE YOU FROM THE CONSEQUENCE OF THAT. 1529 01:15:38,234 --> 01:15:40,201 THE ONLY WAY TO CHANGE THE FACT 1530 01:15:40,203 --> 01:15:42,803 THAT YOU'RE GONNA DIE SOON BECAUSE OF YOUR WEIGHT 1531 01:15:42,805 --> 01:15:45,740 IS THAT YOU HAVE TO DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT. 1532 01:15:45,742 --> 01:15:47,141 YOU HAVE TO DO IT. 1533 01:15:47,143 --> 01:15:50,077 AND YOU NEED TO DECIDE IF YOU WANT TO DO THAT NOW, 1534 01:15:50,079 --> 01:15:52,813 BECAUSE I'M GIVING YOU ONE MORE WEEK TO COME BACK DOWN 1535 01:15:52,815 --> 01:15:55,216 SO I CAN SEE IF YOU'RE MAKING PROGRESS OR NOT. 1536 01:15:55,218 --> 01:15:57,184 BUT IF YOU'RE GONNA KEEP MAKING EXCUSES 1537 01:15:57,186 --> 01:15:58,686 AND TRY TO AVOID ME, 1538 01:15:58,688 --> 01:16:00,621 THEN I DON'T NEED TO WASTE MY TIME, 1539 01:16:00,623 --> 01:16:02,857 AND THIS IS NOT GONNA WORK FOR YOU. 1540 01:16:02,859 --> 01:16:05,159 WHEN YOU SAID YOU WANT ME TO COME IN A WEEK, 1541 01:16:05,161 --> 01:16:06,460 SO WHEN I COME IN A WEEK 1542 01:16:06,462 --> 01:16:09,397 AND YOU SEE THAT I HAVE LOST 120 POUNDS, 1543 01:16:09,399 --> 01:16:11,032 THEN YOU'LL SEE THAT I AM SERIOUS 1544 01:16:11,034 --> 01:16:12,934 AND I HAVE BEEN SERIOUS. 1545 01:16:12,936 --> 01:16:14,535 I AM NOT LIKE OTHERS. 1546 01:16:14,537 --> 01:16:17,738 I'M NOT NOT COMING BECAUSE I'M NOT LOSING WEIGHT. 1547 01:16:17,740 --> 01:16:20,408 SO I HOPE THAT YOU SEE I'M NOT LYING 1548 01:16:20,410 --> 01:16:21,909 WHEN I GET THERE. 1549 01:16:21,911 --> 01:16:25,313 NOW YOU'RE CLAIMING YOU LOST 120 POUNDS SINCE I SAW YOU? 1550 01:16:25,315 --> 01:16:27,315 LAST MONTH, IT WAS 70 POUNDS. 1551 01:16:27,317 --> 01:16:30,518 SO, ARE YOU SAYING YOU LOST ANOTHER 50 POUNDS SINCE THEN? 1552 01:16:30,520 --> 01:16:31,986 YES, SIR. 1553 01:16:31,988 --> 01:16:34,121 THEN HOW COME YOU DON'T LOOK LIKE IT 1554 01:16:34,123 --> 01:16:36,290 AND YOU'RE STILL ON THE OXYGEN? 1555 01:16:36,292 --> 01:16:37,692 I DON'T KNOW, SIR. 1556 01:16:37,694 --> 01:16:39,660 BUT I HAVE BEEN FOLLOWING MY DIET, 1557 01:16:39,662 --> 01:16:41,729 AND I'M DOING GREAT. 1558 01:16:41,731 --> 01:16:44,465 ANGELA, YOU'RE MORE DELUSIONAL THAN I THOUGHT 1559 01:16:44,467 --> 01:16:46,834 IF YOU STILL THINK YOU CAN MANIPULATE ME. 1560 01:16:46,836 --> 01:16:48,769 AND WHEN IT COMES TO THIS PROGRAM, 1561 01:16:48,771 --> 01:16:50,171 YOU'RE NOT SPECIAL, 1562 01:16:50,173 --> 01:16:52,206 AND LYING TO ME ABOUT YOUR WEIGHT 1563 01:16:52,208 --> 01:16:54,709 IS NOT GONNA GET ME TO TELL YOU WHAT YOU WANT. 1564 01:16:54,711 --> 01:16:57,044 YOU HAVE ONE OPTION -- IF YOU WANT TO DO THIS 1565 01:16:57,046 --> 01:16:59,146 AND SAVE YOUR LIFE, COME BACK DOWN HERE 1566 01:16:59,148 --> 01:17:01,048 AND SHOW ME WHERE YOUR WEIGHT IS AT, 1567 01:17:01,050 --> 01:17:03,351 AND THEN WE CAN START YOU ON PSYCHOTHERAPY 1568 01:17:03,353 --> 01:17:05,820 TO TRY AND FIND A WAY TO GET THROUGH TO YOU 1569 01:17:05,822 --> 01:17:08,522 AND BREAK THROUGH ALL YOUR LIES AND DELUSIONS. 1570 01:17:08,524 --> 01:17:10,691 IN FACT, THEN THAT WILL BE IT FOR YOU, 1571 01:17:10,693 --> 01:17:12,960 BECAUSE I'M DONE PLAYING YOUR GAMES. 1572 01:17:12,962 --> 01:17:14,929 AND IF YOU MISS YOUR APPOINTMENT AGAIN, 1573 01:17:14,931 --> 01:17:18,666 FOR WHATEVER REASON, I'M NOT TAKING ANY EXCUSES. 1574 01:17:18,668 --> 01:17:20,968 EITHER YOUR HEALTH AND HAVING YOUR LIFE 1575 01:17:20,970 --> 01:17:22,703 IS A PRIORITY OR IT'S NOT. 1576 01:17:22,705 --> 01:17:24,772 WE CAN'T MAKE THE CHOICE FOR YOU. 1577 01:17:24,774 --> 01:17:27,875 SO BE HERE IN ONE WEEK, OR THE PROGRAM WILL NO LONGER 1578 01:17:27,877 --> 01:17:29,677 BE AN OPTION FOR YOU. 1579 01:17:29,679 --> 01:17:32,346 OKAY, I WILL DO THAT. 1580 01:17:32,348 --> 01:17:35,316 I HAD PLANNED ON THE NEXT COUPLE WEEKS, 1581 01:17:35,318 --> 01:17:39,453 BUT I WILL WORK ON THAT RIGHT WHEN WE HANG UP, SIR. 1582 01:17:39,455 --> 01:17:41,288 AND YOU'LL SEE, WHEN I COME DOWN THERE, 1583 01:17:41,290 --> 01:17:44,825 THAT I SHOULD HAVE LOST 120 POUNDS. 1584 01:17:44,827 --> 01:17:46,360 SO WHEN YOU SEE THE SCALE, 1585 01:17:46,362 --> 01:17:48,796 THEN YOU'LL TAKE BACK EVERYTHING YOU JUST SAID. 1586 01:17:48,798 --> 01:17:50,498 BUT THAT'S FINE. 1587 01:17:50,500 --> 01:17:52,633 IF YOU DO, I'LL BE MORE THAN HAPPY 1588 01:17:52,635 --> 01:17:54,101 TO TAKE BACK WHAT I'VE SAID. 1589 01:17:54,103 --> 01:17:55,870 I'M GIVING YOU A CHANCE. 1590 01:17:55,872 --> 01:17:58,105 IT IS UP TO YOU TO TAKE IT, OKAY? 1591 01:17:58,107 --> 01:18:01,042 I APPRECIATE THAT. I WILL TAKE IT. 1592 01:18:01,044 --> 01:18:02,410 ALL RIGHT, ANGELA. 1593 01:18:02,412 --> 01:18:06,080 TALK TO YOU SOON. BYE-BYE. 1594 01:18:08,751 --> 01:18:10,051 Dr. Nowzaradan: IT'S VERY DISAPPOINTING 1595 01:18:10,053 --> 01:18:11,919 TO HAVE ANGELA STILL CHOOSING TO LIE 1596 01:18:11,921 --> 01:18:13,554 TO TRY AND MANIPULATE ME, 1597 01:18:13,556 --> 01:18:16,957 INSTEAD OF TAKING RESPONSIBILITY. 1598 01:18:16,959 --> 01:18:20,327 SHE DOESN'T LOOK TO HAVE MADE MUCH, IF ANY, PROGRESS. 1599 01:18:20,329 --> 01:18:22,596 AND HER LEVEL OF PATHOLOGY AND DELUSION 1600 01:18:22,598 --> 01:18:25,332 IS AMONG THE HIGHEST I HAVE EVER SEEN. 1601 01:18:25,334 --> 01:18:28,235 SHE'S JUST PILED ON ONE LIE AFTER ANOTHER, 1602 01:18:28,237 --> 01:18:30,938 UNTIL THE FACADE SHE CREATES IS SO BIG 1603 01:18:30,940 --> 01:18:33,007 THAT SHE CAN'T BACK IT UP ANYMORE. 1604 01:18:33,009 --> 01:18:34,475 BUT INSTEAD OF COMING CLEAN, 1605 01:18:34,477 --> 01:18:37,111 WHEN SHE CAN'T SUPPORT EVERYTHING SHE HAS MADE UP, 1606 01:18:37,113 --> 01:18:40,081 SHE JUST STARTS A NEW LIE AND KEEPS GOING. 1607 01:18:40,083 --> 01:18:42,783 SO PSYCHOTHERAPY IS GOING TO HAVE TO MAKE 1608 01:18:42,785 --> 01:18:46,687 SIGNIFICANT PROGRESS WITH HER TO TRY TO ADDRESS THIS DELUSION 1609 01:18:46,689 --> 01:18:49,190 BEFORE WE EVEN CONSIDER MOVING AHEAD 1610 01:18:49,192 --> 01:18:51,625 WITH ANOTHER WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY WITH HER. 1611 01:18:51,627 --> 01:18:54,929 BUT TO EVEN GET TO THAT POINT, SHE NEEDS TO FOLLOW THROUGH 1612 01:18:54,931 --> 01:18:57,131 AND COME BACK FOR HER NEXT APPOINTMENT 1613 01:18:57,133 --> 01:18:58,632 AND HIT HER GOAL. 1614 01:18:58,634 --> 01:19:01,335 SO ANGELA NEEDS TO MAKE A CHOICE 1615 01:19:01,337 --> 01:19:03,137 WHETHER SHE'S GOING TO DO THIS OR NOT, 1616 01:19:03,139 --> 01:19:06,540 BECAUSE SHE'S NOT GETTING ANY MORE CHANCES AFTER TODAY. 1617 01:19:06,542 --> 01:19:08,676 BUT I'M HOPING SHE STARTS TO WAKE UP, 1618 01:19:08,678 --> 01:19:11,979 BECAUSE IF SHE DOESN'T, IT'S GONNA COST HER HER LIFE. 1619 01:19:11,981 --> 01:19:20,521 ♪ 1620 01:19:20,523 --> 01:19:23,524 [ Telephone rings ] 1621 01:19:23,526 --> 01:19:24,859 Travis: HELLO? 1622 01:19:24,861 --> 01:19:27,361 HEY, WHATCHA DOING, TRAVIS? NOTHING. 1623 01:19:27,363 --> 01:19:28,729 WHAT ARE YOU UP TO? NOTHING. 1624 01:19:28,731 --> 01:19:31,198 I JUST GOT OFF THE PHONE WITH DR. NOW, 1625 01:19:31,200 --> 01:19:33,334 AND HE WAS JUMPING MY ASS. 1626 01:19:33,336 --> 01:19:35,903 HE JUST SAID, "IF YOU WANT TO BE PART OF THE PROGRAM, 1627 01:19:35,905 --> 01:19:38,873 YOU NEED TO BE HERE IN THE NEXT WEEK." 1628 01:19:38,875 --> 01:19:42,309 SO, I'M GONNA TRY TO GET AHOLD OF ERIC TONIGHT 1629 01:19:42,311 --> 01:19:43,778 AND SEE WHAT HE SAYS. 1630 01:19:43,780 --> 01:19:45,012 THAT'S HAPPENING FAST. 1631 01:19:45,014 --> 01:19:46,847 WELL, KIND OF PISSES ME OFF. 1632 01:19:46,849 --> 01:19:48,816 HE SAYS THAT, BUT HE'S LIKE, 1633 01:19:48,818 --> 01:19:52,119 "EITHER YOU'RE GONNA WORRY ABOUT YOUR HEALTH OR YOU'RE NOT." 1634 01:19:52,121 --> 01:19:54,555 IT SOUNDS LIKE HE WANTS TO HELP YOU OUT. 1635 01:19:54,557 --> 01:19:56,524 YEAH, BUT I'M HAPPY WITH MYSELF, 1636 01:19:56,526 --> 01:19:58,692 AS FAR AS WHAT I'VE BEEN DOING HERE. 1637 01:19:58,694 --> 01:20:02,596 I NEED TO JUST SHOW DR. NOW, SO... 1638 01:20:02,598 --> 01:20:05,232 ALL RIGHT, TRAV, I'M GONNA LET YOU GET BACK TO WORK. 1639 01:20:05,234 --> 01:20:06,867 OKAY. I LOVE YOU. 1640 01:20:06,869 --> 01:20:08,602 MM, BYE. BYE. 1641 01:20:14,110 --> 01:20:17,244 Angela: DR. NOW WAS SAYING, "YOU NEED TO GET HERE. 1642 01:20:17,246 --> 01:20:18,712 WHEN YOU MISS APPOINTMENTS," 1643 01:20:18,714 --> 01:20:22,049 IT MAKES HIM THINK YOU'RE NOT SERIOUS ABOUT YOUR DIET. 1644 01:20:22,051 --> 01:20:25,653 AND I THINK ME AND HIM DISAGREE SOMEWHAT ON THINGS, 1645 01:20:25,655 --> 01:20:27,421 BECAUSE HE SAID PEOPLE DON'T COME 1646 01:20:27,423 --> 01:20:29,356 BECAUSE THEY HAVEN'T LOST THEIR WEIGHT, 1647 01:20:29,358 --> 01:20:31,592 AND HE SAID, "AND YOU'RE NO DIFFERENT THAN OTHERS." 1648 01:20:31,594 --> 01:20:35,162 BUT I ABSOLUTELY AM DIFFERENT FROM OTHERS. 1649 01:20:35,164 --> 01:20:36,730 HE DON'T BELIEVE ME -- I DON'T KNOW -- 1650 01:20:36,732 --> 01:20:40,134 MAYBE 'CAUSE SO MANY PEOPLE SAY THINGS THAT AREN'T TRUE, 1651 01:20:40,136 --> 01:20:42,036 BUT I KNOW WHAT I'VE DONE, 1652 01:20:42,038 --> 01:20:44,738 SO I'M NOT UPSET ABOUT WHAT HE SAID, 1653 01:20:44,740 --> 01:20:47,107 BECAUSE HE CAN ONLY SEE ME CHEST-UP. 1654 01:20:47,109 --> 01:20:50,644 SO I WANT HIM TO SEE THAT I'VE NOT BEEN IN OHIO, 1655 01:20:50,646 --> 01:20:51,979 HIDING FROM HIM. 1656 01:20:51,981 --> 01:20:55,082 BUT PART OF ME FEELS LIKE IT'S KIND OF A WASTE 1657 01:20:55,084 --> 01:20:57,785 GOING DOWN THERE, BECAUSE I'M STILL DIETING. 1658 01:20:57,787 --> 01:21:01,822 I'M STILL LOSING WEIGHT. I'M STILL LOOKING AT WHAT I EAT. 1659 01:21:01,824 --> 01:21:04,558 SO I DON'T KNOW IF I SHOULD GO. 1660 01:21:04,560 --> 01:21:07,061 I'M REALLY 50/50. 1661 01:21:16,439 --> 01:21:25,546 ♪ 1662 01:21:25,548 --> 01:21:32,720 ♪ 1663 01:21:32,722 --> 01:21:41,595 ♪ 1664 01:21:41,597 --> 01:21:45,866 Angela: I'VE NOT SEEN DR. NOW FOR SIX MONTHS. 1665 01:21:45,868 --> 01:21:49,203 I HAD TO CHOOSE TO PUT TEXAS ON HOLD. 1666 01:21:49,205 --> 01:21:51,672 I DO WANT TO GO SEE DR. NOW. 1667 01:21:51,674 --> 01:21:56,277 I'M NOT TRYING TO NOT GO SEE HIM. 1668 01:21:56,279 --> 01:21:59,480 BUT, RIGHT NOW, TO STAY ON DR. NOW'S PROGRAM, 1669 01:21:59,482 --> 01:22:01,615 IT'S TOO MUCH. 1670 01:22:01,617 --> 01:22:05,753 SO I'M STAYING IN CONTACT WITH DR. NOW. 1671 01:22:05,755 --> 01:22:09,089 I'M CONTINUING TO WATCH WHAT I EAT, 1672 01:22:09,091 --> 01:22:11,592 WATCH WHAT I DRINK. 1673 01:22:11,594 --> 01:22:13,927 I'M CONTINUING TO EXERCISE. 1674 01:22:13,929 --> 01:22:17,298 BUT WITH ME HAVING LACY AND MY RESPONSIBILITIES, 1675 01:22:17,300 --> 01:22:20,134 I'VE NOT BEEN ABLE TO LEAVE AND JUST GO TO TEXAS. 1676 01:22:20,136 --> 01:22:28,943 ♪ 1677 01:22:28,945 --> 01:22:31,845 RIGHT NOW, THE SITUATION WITH LACY IS, 1678 01:22:31,847 --> 01:22:35,783 SHE COULDN'T LEAVE AND DIDN'T HAVE NO PARENT TO GO TO. 1679 01:22:35,785 --> 01:22:38,619 SHE WAS GONNA BE REUNITED WITH HER MOM, 1680 01:22:38,621 --> 01:22:41,922 AND THAT DID NOT WORK OUT THE WAY WE WANTED IT TO. 1681 01:22:41,924 --> 01:22:45,426 SO I STILL HAVE RESPONSIBILITY OF HER. 1682 01:22:45,428 --> 01:22:48,429 AND AS LONG AS I HAVE LACY IN MY HOUSE, 1683 01:22:48,431 --> 01:22:50,597 IT'S NOT ABOUT ANGELA. 1684 01:22:50,599 --> 01:22:54,368 IT HAS TO BE ABOUT ANGELA AND LACY. 1685 01:22:54,370 --> 01:22:56,003 WHAT ARE WE HAVING FOR DINNER? 1686 01:22:56,005 --> 01:22:57,805 DO WE HAVE A WHOLE BOX OF TURKEY BURGERS? 1687 01:22:57,807 --> 01:23:00,975 I DON'T KNOW. I CAN CHECK. HOW MANY DO YOU WANT? 1688 01:23:00,977 --> 01:23:03,076 I SHOULD ONLY HAVE ONE, BUT I WANT TWO. 1689 01:23:03,078 --> 01:23:04,244 I'M HUNGRY. I ONLY WANT ONE. 1690 01:23:04,246 --> 01:23:05,713 ALL RIGHT. 1691 01:23:05,715 --> 01:23:08,582 GO SEE IF THEY'RE IN THERE, HONEY. 1692 01:23:08,584 --> 01:23:11,452 LACY MEANS THE WORLD TO ME. 1693 01:23:11,454 --> 01:23:12,853 WITH THE WEIGHT THAT I'VE LOST, 1694 01:23:12,855 --> 01:23:15,656 NOW WE HAVE MORE FUN COOKING DINNER TOGETHER, 1695 01:23:15,658 --> 01:23:18,225 BECAUSE SHE'S NOT DOING THE MAJORITY OF IT. 1696 01:23:18,227 --> 01:23:19,994 WE'RE DOING IT TOGETHER. 1697 01:23:19,996 --> 01:23:22,863 SHE LOVES COOKING. I LOVE COOKING. 1698 01:23:22,865 --> 01:23:25,132 EVEN THOUGH SHE LOVES IT, I'M ABLE TO NOW. 1699 01:23:25,134 --> 01:23:27,067 I DON'T NEED HER TO. 1700 01:23:27,069 --> 01:23:30,004 AND SO SOMETIMES I HAVE TO TELL HER TO SIT DOWN, 1701 01:23:30,006 --> 01:23:31,538 LET ME DO IT. 1702 01:23:31,540 --> 01:23:33,674 YOU GOT YOUR POTATOES? 1703 01:23:33,676 --> 01:23:36,243 WE HAD TO LEARN A LOT ABOUT EACH OTHER 1704 01:23:36,245 --> 01:23:37,978 WHEN SHE MOVED IN HERE. 1705 01:23:37,980 --> 01:23:41,181 WHEN I FIRST GOT HER, IN THE FIRST SIX MONTHS, 1706 01:23:41,183 --> 01:23:44,251 WE DIDN'T HAVE A REAL CLOSE CONNECTION. 1707 01:23:44,253 --> 01:23:47,454 AND NOW I LOVE HER LIKE SHE'S MY OWN. 1708 01:23:47,456 --> 01:23:52,726 SO, YES, I CHOSE LACY OVER MY HEALTH. 1709 01:23:52,728 --> 01:23:55,696 BUT, YOU KNOW, EVEN THOUGH I GAINED A LITTLE BIT BACK, 1710 01:23:55,698 --> 01:23:57,765 I STILL LOST A LOT OF IT. 1711 01:23:57,767 --> 01:23:59,767 THAT MAKES ME WANT TO KEEP DIETING 1712 01:23:59,769 --> 01:24:02,336 AND NOT TURN TO THE BAD FOOD 1713 01:24:02,338 --> 01:24:07,274 AND NOT GO BACK TO THE JUNK FOOD AND DRINKS. 1714 01:24:07,276 --> 01:24:09,443 WILL YOU STICK MY CUP IN THE SINK FOR ME? 1715 01:24:09,445 --> 01:24:11,111 YOU READY TO GO GET SOME ICE CREAM? 1716 01:24:11,113 --> 01:24:13,747 YEAH! 1717 01:24:13,749 --> 01:24:16,583 THEN GET READY TO GO. 1718 01:24:16,585 --> 01:24:18,652 MY MOBILITY IS -- 1719 01:24:18,654 --> 01:24:22,022 IT'S A LOT BETTER THAN IT HAS BEEN IN YEARS. 1720 01:24:22,024 --> 01:24:26,260 AND I CAN ACTUALLY WALK OUT AND GET IN MY VAN. 1721 01:24:26,262 --> 01:24:27,594 GOT IT? 1722 01:24:27,596 --> 01:24:29,963 I CAN TAKE LACY SOMEWHERE. 1723 01:24:29,965 --> 01:24:32,199 IF SHE WANTS TO GO SOMEWHERE 1724 01:24:32,201 --> 01:24:34,334 OR IF I WANT TO SURPRISE HER WITH SOMETHING 1725 01:24:34,336 --> 01:24:37,071 OR REWARD HER WITH SOMETHING, 1726 01:24:37,073 --> 01:24:40,707 WE WALK OUTSIDE AND GET IN THE CAR AND GO. 1727 01:24:40,709 --> 01:24:42,876 I'VE DEFINITELY CAME A LONG WAY. 1728 01:24:42,878 --> 01:24:46,046 I STILL HAVE A LONG WAY TO GO, THOUGH. 1729 01:24:46,048 --> 01:24:51,685 BUT I HAVE MADE ACCOMPLISHMENTS AND PROGRESS. 1730 01:24:51,687 --> 01:24:56,690 FOR RIGHT NOW, TODAY, I KNOW I'M GETTING HEALTHIER. 1731 01:24:56,692 --> 01:25:00,060 LACY'S PROUD OF ME. MY DAUGHTER'S PROUD OF ME. 1732 01:25:00,062 --> 01:25:03,163 MY GRANDBABY'S PROUD OF ME. 1733 01:25:03,165 --> 01:25:06,667 EVEN THOUGH I STILL HAVE A LONG ROAD AHEAD OF ME, 1734 01:25:06,669 --> 01:25:08,769 THERE'S LIGHT AT THE END OF THE ROAD. 1735 01:25:11,140 --> 01:25:12,706 WHOO! 1736 01:25:12,708 --> 01:25:14,875 I DON'T WANT TO GO BACK. 1737 01:25:14,877 --> 01:25:18,078 I DON'T WANT TO TAKE STEPS BACKWARDS. 1738 01:25:18,080 --> 01:25:21,882 I NEED TO KEEP THE BALL ROLLING, PER SE. 1739 01:25:21,884 --> 01:25:23,784 THANK YOU. YOU'RE WELCOME, HONEY. 1740 01:25:23,786 --> 01:25:25,052 THIS IS REAL GOOD. 1741 01:25:25,054 --> 01:25:26,753 YOU REMEMBER WHEN I COULDN'T EVEN TAKE YOU 1742 01:25:26,755 --> 01:25:30,090 TO THE STORE LIKE THIS? MM-HMM. 1743 01:25:30,092 --> 01:25:31,625 OR IF WE DID GO, IT WAS VERY -- 1744 01:25:31,627 --> 01:25:33,927 IT HURT SO BAD TO TRY TO GET IN THE VAN. 1745 01:25:33,929 --> 01:25:35,662 REMEMBER THEM DAYS? 1746 01:25:35,664 --> 01:25:38,098 YEP. THEY'RE LONG GONE. 1747 01:25:38,100 --> 01:25:41,201 NOT TODAY! NOT TODAY! 1748 01:25:42,671 --> 01:25:45,439 IT MIGHT SEEM LIKE I'VE GAVE UP. 1749 01:25:45,441 --> 01:25:48,442 YOU KNOW, I MIGHT HAVE GAVE UP SOME, 1750 01:25:48,444 --> 01:25:52,779 BUT I'VE NOT TRULY GAVE UP. 1751 01:25:52,781 --> 01:25:55,048 I STILL HAVE A LONG WAYS TO GO BEFORE I'M HAPPY 1752 01:25:55,050 --> 01:25:59,786 WITH EVERYTHING, BUT TODAY IS A GOOD DAY. 1753 01:25:59,788 --> 01:26:05,225 TODAY IS -- I'M NOT GONNA WORRY ABOUT IT. 1754 01:26:05,227 --> 01:26:07,494 I MEAN, THERE PROBABLY WILL COME A DAY 1755 01:26:07,496 --> 01:26:10,464 WHEN I HAVE TO GET THERE. 1756 01:26:10,466 --> 01:26:12,733 BUT I'LL GET THERE.